Meanpheyaszmyn: SaberMidnight.

hey

2011-12-21T21:46:00.002+08:00

So many things to do but so little time.

GC

2011-11-20T18:18:00.004+08:00

AWESOME GOOD SHOW. BEST CONCERT SO FAR \m/

I'll be back soon.
Be back to kill.kick.love.hate.kiss all of you. Tsk.

HAHAHAH.

2011-10-09T23:15:00.004+08:00

''I'm not about to take no for an answer no
If you tell me I can't, I'm still gonna go
I did it all by myself and I found..
I found my way around it''

I AM NOT GIVING UP HAHAHA NEVER.
You guys tryin' to be bring me down again aye?
TRY HARDER.

Cause afterall it's what I want, and it's not what you want.
I know what you want but you won't ever get it. You will never get to me.
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
<3

Who's Laughing Now

2011-10-05T20:11:00.002+08:00

''Oh, so you think you know me now
Have you forgotten how
You would make me feel
When you drag my spirit down
But thank you for the pain
It made me raise my game
And I'm still rising, I'm still rising..
So who's laughing now?''

STORY OF MY LIFE <3

Score.

2011-09-30T01:33:00.004+08:00

After all the things that I have been through, all the things people say and having to deal with it alone, I know who I can be. Having no one to trust and still having the patience, trying to hold on. I knew what people wrote and say about me, every single detail, but I never take it to heart as I know what I am capable of. Having people to belittle you, everytime they had the chance, I don't give in. I keep it up and bottle up my feelings and put myself to the extreme.

I never let anyone stop me, whatever it takes.
I do feel as though I have tried too hard, I might cry and laugh for joy.
Hard work paid off, no one knows what you have to do to get to the top.

But here it is:

I achieve a gpa 4 again and again.
Sometimes I want to challenge myself to always achieve the impossible
even when there are always people dying to tear you down.

Thank you God. Thanks everyone who dearly have encourage and help me, no matter how small your contributions are.

xoxo
Yasmin

Happy Birthday MJ!

2011-08-29T02:46:00.003+08:00

I will never forget about a person (full of heart) like you!
Hope you're fine, anywhere you are.

xoxo Meanpheyaszmyn.

Gone Wrong.

2011-07-18T21:42:00.001+08:00

I kick the boys and make them fall.
I might kiss or kill you.

What's your freaking age again?

2011-06-29T22:14:00.006+08:00

28 June 2011

Out and hand up reports.
With Syidah.
Had fun, and watched X-men First Class - My review 5/5. A must watch okay. Azazel is smoking evil hot haha. I never felt so happy to watch a movie and got out smiling. I would love to have Magneto's power. No lie, or Shaw's haha.
Ate yoghurt, and it used to be a delight that I hate.

More pics @ Fb.

& you know what?
I hate these species of people.

I hate when a promise is broken. If you promise to be there at a certain time or day or whatsoever,you better be there,and you better text me earlier why you're late. I get annoyed with these people,and I hope one day they fall to the ground so bad, and if you ever want things to be done,you gonna get from people like you. LATE.

I hate when people misuse your trust too. You know those people who say things like 'you can tell me anything' or 'may I ask for your advice?' 'do you know how to do this task?', yea well shut up. When it comes to their turn,it's always a 'oh,I can't tell you,it's private or it's confidential,I can't tell you more,um like why you want to know more?' or get angry because they have freaking pms. Uh hello,what's the purpose of you talking to me in the first place? It don't stop there, they go round telling people stories about you though. You know one day people like you will wana talk about you, since you have a mouth of 'gold'. Maybe you should just shut up.

Don't you find it annoying when.. people tell you about their problems and compared to what you have been through or what you are going through,it is nowhere near yours. You keep thinking 'what's the big deal?' JUST DEAL WITH IT.

& there's these pricks who text you one day and disappear and text you back again. Don't play games with me. And appear when you're bored. Well.. I am bored too, but you are just too boring for me to deal with. You think you're special,well you're not. Screw yourself. One day,you will dream about me,over and over and over again, and when you're back whatsoever, I won't be there.

It gets on my nerves when everyone thinks they know me. I don't even know me that well. It's funny when they say I am positive when I am not. I am filled with everything you think I don't. Don't waste your time wanting to know me. Go away. I am becoming like my old self, and you know what, I am better off this way. Humans are nothing special anyway.

You (whoever thinks that these people are them), well screw you.

Well you guys out there need to be extra careful with scumbags.
Don't say I didn't warn you.

& I am sorry I didn't fall to pathetic bunch of traps.
Don't be butthurt. Try harder and try me.
I'm better off alone,you jolly well know that.
(;

Happy Death Anniversary Mr BADASS.

2011-06-25T16:49:00.005+08:00

''You know that love survives..''

Hell yeah (:
There's never a day that I will forget about you.
Thanks for coming to my dream today!
Love you now and forever! (;

Sincerely,

your no. 1 fan.

Watch me.

2011-06-20T23:46:00.000+08:00

I'm not that innocent.

Fickle minded.

2011-06-09T16:14:00.005+08:00

"Don't deny what you know, face your fears and don't just stand there,do something. Realise me and realise the situation before you face the consequences, you know because when I'm gone, I'm gone forever,and I will be your biggest regret. I promise you that.''

-Meanpheyaszmyn.

May Days.

2011-05-29T19:47:00.015+08:00

Hello. I have disappeared into thin air and I am back heh.
I just want to say to myself 'cause I know noones reads this HAHA -
that alot of things happen in May. I am not even joking.

Why do I feel I am about to faint right now? Hmm.

So right after my birthday (a laidback one again),
I went to Avril Concert (The Black Star Tour) :)

9 May 2011

Basically noone wants to accompany me.
Everyone have their own reasons and excuses (haha)
so I have decided to invite Aisyah but she said no due to money constraint, I was sad :(
but I came up with a plan and she said yes woohoo.
:)

Aisyah:
YOU KNOW I KNOW
(;

I had always wanted to go to her concert since she is one of those celebrities that teach me how to be carefree yet mellow at the same time. First time she was here, I was like naaaahhh, the next time she was here, I was like 'nooooooo, I can't go but no big deal'. NOW SHE IS HERE AGAIN NO WAY NO WAY I MUST GO HEHE.

I know she became 'annoying', guess what? I am too HAHAHAHAHHAHAA. I still prefer the 'Under my skin' phase but hey everyone change right. Besides, her new personality spells awesomexsxs.

We were super early once we reached there. It felt like a ghost town. Bought our food and drinks and waited for hours! And we met two guys :) One of them - a blockhead. No joke HAHAHA. Sorry yaw, thanks for the drink and poster and great time (;.

The concert could be an extreme happiness for me if:

There's no projects for me to worry about and the people (you knowwww)
Never to worry about school attendance KEKEKE.
If I sit right infront of Avril
If I meet Avril and her autograph
Her concert be 2 and a half hours.

but.. oh welllssss it is fun because I HAD AVRIL FEVER :DDDD

It was awesome, and I had an awesome night. So were my friend, the blockhead and his friend (:
Love you Aisyah \m/
& one more thing: AVRIL TOTALLY WORE LIKE WHAT I WILL WEAR, HAVE WORN AND THOSE SIMILAR DESIGNS, I WAS 0.0.

For more picture:

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The week continues and I had the rough time of my life.
Possibly the worst week of my life?
Where everyone just push you aside, couldn't give a damn about you and treat you like their beck and call. Everyone talks so much but no actions done, but when it comes to you, everything is a mistake. I feel noone understands me,still feeling this way. Not a single person. A person I want to trust so much, just went missing in action, but appear the week after. What?

I just wish God help me. Only he knows what I saw, what I felt, what I want.

There was a day during this period of time, where I forgot to bring my house keys and left stranded for hours and hours 'cause noone was at home. It was actually nothing to fret about but noone was there for me. My handphone went flat,woohoo. I looked around and wanted to cling on to anyone that wants to help me but I got noone. I came to a point where this taught me not to wait for something that's not going to happen. In fact, I should make it happen and with someone I truly care.

Then, my computer just crashed and I had new lappie now (: but really, it was a stressful night 'cause my project was due the next day and it just went blank. Imagine the data etc sigh and again noone cares. Lucky, I had my brother. Lucky I had a brother. and a great family.

22 May 2011

Went out with Aeda because I completely need a getaway even for an hour.
Off to harbourfront and it was crowded -_-''

I have no idea why I wore that yellow Marthurfarker dress?
Im not uttering a bad word okay! Google it up,it's a brand name HAHAA.
I still feel I have no sense of belonging on earth.
A bunch of girls even shouted 'ugllyyyyy' Okay.

I can't depend on anyone. I feel very sad, saddest life.

More pictures @ my facebook.

The days went on and on and on and there's no stopping.
I wish to stop this now.

I feel happiest alone.
Don't know why. Why am I feeling this way?

USS

2011-05-02T14:39:00.012+08:00

I know!
Been there a week ago and updating a week later HAHAHA.
Can't blame me though, busy like a bee.
What's USS? Some asked -__-'' Universal Studio Singapore HELLO?

Went there with a purpose:

Celebrate my soul friend's birthday which is on the 23rd April! Okay sounds as though I am celebrating for a ghost, soul HEHE.
Took the roller coaster ride especially the PANASONIC (correct me if I am wrong)
Pictures with my 2 buddies Syidah and Aeda.
HAVE FUN and away from school's stress!
Recover with my fever etc the grand way hmmm.

Met Syidah first and met Aeda a.k.a late birthday girl an hour later. Had the best laughters ever shhh. Afterwhich, bought our snacks and whatnot. HAHAH SMARTIES AND ALL, BEEN AGES SINCE I HAVE ONE HAHAHA.

Once we stepped in NARNIA ok joking into USS, it's a total different world! :D
The first ride we took with yellow 'spacecups' or whatever was awesome. Rode twice.
Next 3 rides we ran for were roller coasters. Yes we ran to get the rides, that's how excited we were AHAHAHA. LONG LIVE ROLLER COASTERS \m/

Woohoo. I love all the twists and turns and that shit with the long effect of downfall made my heart zapped to my mouth 0.0 That was nicey scary. I kept on fidgeting and worrying about my contact lenses, you see I am a girl who thinks a lot. I came to a point where I thought my contact lenses will shift to the back of my eyeballs due to the strong wind. Nope nothing. Short info: I have been using mine without any sore eyes for a year, yup I didn't change my contact lenses for a year (: HAHAH.

Second ride was the Mummy's ride, SUPER INDOOR ROLLER COASTER IT WAS TERRIFIC! And off to the Shrek's bits. Cute ride! (:
Don't even ask about the Merry-go-round,cute to the max. Feels like a kid again!
&& Lights, Camera, Action looks real seriously!

Not much time for other rides, NEXT TIME WE WILL (:

Before we took some of the rides, it was scorching hot. Sweating like mad. We took cover and ate our snacks. Bought this lovely 'potion' with Puss in Boots logo on it. It costs a whooping $12.90 but it was worth it. I drank and didn't notice my tongue and lips went blue -_-''. Pictures of me looked as though I went blue for lipstick -_-. CRAP.

Mummy's place got to be my favourite. I mean once you see those hot macho guys HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA pretending to be hot. Aeda's favourite. We snickered alot about this and I know there's one that got her heart flutters. There's a point Syidah was nowhere to be seen as her glasses was with us, took from the lockers provided and honestly Aeda cared more about the Mummy guy than her friend HAHAHAHAHHA.

This guy's fault.

I specifically remembered girls hogging to one booth machine for lockers and kept pressing for 'renting' of booth and we were behind them to 'un-rent' our lockers HAHA unrent HAHA. I got no patience and scolded them HAAHHAHAHAHAHAHA. It's not supposed to be funny but when I think back,it's funny,look at their faces HAHAHAAHAHAHA. I laughed alot sorry.

Took pictures with Shrek and Fiona and she was real. 0.0
Her voice sounds like FIONA!
She looks like FIONA!
Okay to tell you the truth,I looked like crap the whole journey. Tsk tsk.
More pictures at Facebook alright.

The conversation cracks me up:

Princess Fiona: Hi! How are you?
Me: Good :D
Princess Fiona: Did a Prince rescue you?
Me: No
Princess Fiona: Waiting for Shrek?
Me: Yes

Actually I lied,who wants a shrek? HAHAHAHAHAA. I was so mesmerised by her looks I don't know what I said. Uggg we all looked so run down rides after rides and waiting time sucks. Aeda has a last minute plan (sucks) and she headed home first. Gave her pressies (:

Oh wells there's always another time. My life has been so high and crushed so low and it has cracks and sturdy roads, just like USS. But nothing will ever bring me down or stop me. Nothing. I had the most fun! I wish that time was on our side or maybe we had too much time, can't stay too long though camera's battery went flat GWARHH.

In the taxi, Syidah and I got a female driver. Talked non-stop -_-'' but as soon as I interact with her more, it gets exciting. Let it just be a conversation confidential HAHA. She doesn't know what race I am HAHAHAHA :'''D.

Home with KFC and Hawaii Five-0 (original)! A day not to forget.
Before 23rd April, I got listed for a Director's list and did well for my exams again.
Thank you GOD. My life couldn't get better than this!
Or not?

You will see me again soon :)
More outings eventhough MORE PROJECTS zzZZZzz.
I'm so happy I don't care how silly I sound in this post :X.

Where are you?

2011-03-27T18:30:00.001+08:00

Where are you Yasmin? Come out come out wherever you are!
Hehehe.

Note to self.
Stop sleeping get crackin'.

My friend told me

2011-03-03T19:50:00.006+08:00

My friend told me that she can't imagine me cuddling with a guy
because she expressed that I am anti-boys :(

That's true and that's not true.
I just like guys that don't exist anymore in this era (:
or maybe don't exist hahahaha.
Well tbh none caught my attention so yuuuuuuuup.

:D

One's dead - very well know who.
Another - Just old now.

Thank you.

Next week (;

I

2011-02-22T14:30:00.002+08:00

I was born to survive, you can't bring me down.
Don't laugh at me,for one day I will laugh at you back.

Watch this space soon (;

:3

2011-02-07T16:11:00.005+08:00

It is just that I am going to have a sweeeeeeeeeeeet nice dreammmm tonight.
Mhmmmm hmmm.

I am going to bring back a guy like this
and just scare the shit out of everyone.
Everyone thinks I am going to bring back home
a clean shaven guy with suit HAHAHHAHAA.
1 2 3
Imagine their faces :O

Ok well he is nice,the voice ahhh. Soothing.
Who cares about what he has done.
Some did it worst okaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.

What's the craze with justin beeeeber again?
Hmmm.

Heh heh heh.
Too bad he is not in this era
ok maybe it is just me not born in the golden times :(

:(((

What is wrong with me nowadays? Damnit.
Now my mum is making fun of me: 'Yasmin like old guys'
-_-

& I have a feeling MJ is mad at me.
His poster fell right on my face the other night :/

K byebye ehhehehehehehhehehee.

Where were you?

2011-02-03T19:02:00.003+08:00

Where were you when I needed you the most?
You said you will be there?
Oh right,it was just a song and you are gone now.
Damn.

You left me hanging and lost.
yasmin

Wish.

2011-01-28T15:19:00.002+08:00

Wish me luck for semi-finals :(
I'm scared but I don't hold anything back. I hope.

Whats up?

2011-01-01T16:56:00.012+08:00

21 December 2010

Went to PARKROYAL Hotel with a bunch of misfits haha.
My friends - Loverbirds H & N HAHA, Aeda, Syidah, Minyi and I had a blast.

More pictures at facebook.

22 & 23 December 2010

Off to Malaysia with family/Quite a rushing trip but it was all good eventhough projects are supposed to be in my mind,ok it did occupy my mind but it is the time to enjoy so... haha/I don't like Canon cameras because of its quality ugg so my favourite brand will always be my first! Eversince the lens of my dearest old camera worn off, I use ____. I am a dumbo on that two days because I brought along 3 cameras HAHAHA (; I don't get all the hypes about Canon hm.

Cheap thrills/Expensive clothes&shoes - worth it/That cat is me,believe me/I am getting used to all the stares, it's like I am loving it >:)/SEE THE HALLLLOOOOOO HEY HEY HEY/From now on,I think all stallholders are using the same tactics of ' You are so pretty,you are so beautiful etc' CONFIRM because I don't think I am,okay anything goes/I couldn't even be more happier - I felt that I am well fed these days, Chicken rice best ever, Satay, Malaysia have the best KFC- Cheese wedges etc + Pepsi pepsi pepsi + Pizza and it goes on while I am at home, until now >:)

We as a whole make a joke about everything - goofballs :D/Thank you MUM (:,Dad and wonderful you-know-who! Happy belated birthday yea my only 'Shia'!

More pics:
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The rest of 2010

I met a bunch of goofballs, like well you know.
I will never stop my habit - sleeping. Sleeping is the source of happiness, believe me.
Went back to school to submit my team's project and ended up talking to this teacher for an hour for a looooooooong time. I felt like an adult,TALKING FOR AN HOUR WHAT THE. It's okay.
Harry Potter movie marathon. I actually love Sirius Black :x

lastly I don't get it why people get so happy about New Year?
It's the same every year?
I get so sad. It means I am getting older, the world is without Michael Jackson
( just because Michael Jackson revolves around the world and he does).
Everything about MJ leads to $$$$.

Think about it: IT IS THE SAME.
I don't see how it is a 'brand new start' when all you going to do
is behave like what you are now?
2010 is awesome for me.
Too bad it is not for most of you.
I get to see alot of characters but I knew it all along how people behave.
I am just so cool like that. I am sorry that haters can't get to me hehehehe.
Try harder.

Have a nice bloody 2011,
Today is the first,break some rules (:

Yours truly,
MEAN.

5 in 1

2010-10-09T19:56:00.021+08:00

Caught me! I didn't update my blog :(

Super lazy, been reading Betty & V and can't stop buying new stocks and busy too, alrightttt same excuses. This will be a series of long posts aight?
Will be super stretchy so if you're falling asleep anytime soon,do sleep.
Thank q. Don't tell me I didn't warn you.

06 August 2010

I'm aware that this is overdue.
Out with dear Minyi/Ate Pizza/ Love the smell and taste of Mushroom soup!/Friendly staff/ Laughed at some book covers because it reminds us of some people/ Saw an auntie dressed like a desperado/Found out that this girl has a child and uh you get the picture,don't judge a book by its cover/ Had the upper hand with childish acts because I simply don't give a damn.

Other pictures in my facebook (:.

24 September 2010

Open Haus(Yes it's house but I love the sound of haus)/Mini open haus don't feel like mini therefore it's Open Haus/Love toddlers how cute :3/I know I am at the age that shouldn't be expecting green packets from others but I RECEIVE A WHOLE SUM :D.

Thanks to my mates who came - Fatynn and Shahirah and the couples/Thanks to everyone who made it (mum's friends/dad's friends/bro's friends/maternal and paternal sides etc especially my uncles :D hehehe),I had such a great time!/Those who didn't reply and such,I don't give a cat's rats hahahahahahahahahaha.

There's this chat that made me smile.

Grandma: 'How did Yasmin's face get so white? What did she use?'
Mum: 'I don't know,why?'
Grandma: 'I want to look that fair too'

&

Bro: 'Lady boss coming'
Uncle M: 'No,cosmetic queen came, Sosilawati eh?'
Me: 'WHAT NONSENSE! I don't even know how to do make up.'

But I have to say:
whoever killed the late cosmetics millionaire Sosilawati and others
may I add in the fasting month and what not,may the persons rot in hell.
Not only murdered/beaten etc,
the remains were said to have been burnt and bones were left in streams going nowhere.
How sad. Rest in peace.

25 September 2010

Out to Hasif's open Haus/Uncomfortable but the couples made me feel at ease (:/
Bro's friends came at my haus while I went out to others,great! HAHA/Walked my walk with loose shoes/In the train an auntie vomited but I was slow to realise as I am standing on the other side and guess what? Singaporeans left her alone - literally running to the other side yes RUN!/ Took a bus and it's not my cup of tea but I got to stop being a spoil brat/While I took the bus I looked at purple cars and shiny moon,ahhh soothing

When I think back about couples as a friend,I never really thought I could be a close friend because for my past life the girls will always blame me for 'stealing' their man for whatever reason like ew not my taste. They are good couple friends that I had and I cherish every moment!

More pics at Facebook.

29 September 2010

Out with Minyi and Serina (buddies!)/Pizza AGAIN/No mushroom soup/VERY GOOD SERVICE ONCE AGAIN! ONE MORE TIME AND I WILL RECOMMEND WHERE I ATE MY PIZZA!/Last resort tomato soup,the trick is to sprinkle a whole lot of cheese/When you had free overflowing drinks for Pepsi for example took advantage of that - like me! I took 3 whole full cups of Pepsi :D/Saw 2 idiots (shhhh!)/Shop shop and spend!/Saw the desperado auntie AGAIN/2 typical girls stared and snickered at me but we laughed it off because they look just the same/Had a great time with great people! (:

Bonded with Bro!/Went to funfair and I have dreamt of buying corn peas so instantly I bought it :3/Massive lot of cute stuffs but saving naow.

Usually I don't like tattoos guys but.. this particular guy is just doing his job so,
the conversation goes like this.

Guy: 'Hi okay I am selling a wide range of perfumes like this one and you can smell this'
(gave a perfume slip)

Me: 'Okay' (Let my friends smell it)
(Gave it back)

Guy: 'You can keep it, anyway we will be here till 6 October ..'

& I lost track on what he said because most of the time I was staring at him and his tatts hahahahahahahhahahahahahahhaha. Well he had lots of guts I tell you *sheepish grins*
See I am kind enough to listen to what he have to say unlike others. I am not that bad ehem ehem.

More pics.

7 October 2010

I am waiting for my results anxiously.
Been logging in and out and in and you know for days! I scored a perfect gpa 4 once more! I thank god so much, I am still doubting myself though for terms to come :'( but I really really thank god even with all the things that people say,I made it!/Dad heard it and bought me McDonald's breakfasts (:!/
Went to fun fair again with my beloved mummy!/Uncivilised foreigner,almost squashed my mummy with the lift's sliding door,have the courtesy to press the button. I almost crush him to the ground with that irritating grave look he gave. He looked like a ghost though.

& a stall holder (30 years of age although he looks young) trying to get my number.

Guy: 'Pretty'

Me: 'Huh'
(Ignore because I thought he was being nice and mummy was laughing for whatever reason)

Guy: 'Pretty uh,this is your sister or daughter?'
(He is hinting to my mum because I do not know what to do)
(Keep saying pretty pretty pretty)

Mum: 'Daughter why?'

Guy: 'What's her name? Do you have phone number? So pretty'
( I didn't wear any make up so I don't get it)

Me: ' No'

Mum: 'You give her ah'

Guy: 'I don't have a phone'

Guy: 'What's the name?'

Me: 'Yasmin'

Guy:'OHHHH YASSSMIN'
My mum and I spend 5 minutes selecting foods.

(Walking away)

Guy:' TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF OKAY?! BYE!!!

Me: I was smiling but I was puzzled inside.

NO PHONE?!?
Okay by this stage I kept smiling because mum told me that
I have been very unapproachable with guys.
Don't get me wrong I was just being nice uh.
I would like to think it was just a tactic for his stall.

OKAY DONE.
I am just uncomfortable with this kind of thing but I do know that stall holders' boys have balls?

and oh for this week I killed 2 lizards on different days.
ACCOMPLISHMENT :D.

Happy Birthday Michael Jackson.

2010-08-29T20:19:00.007+08:00

"Now it's official"
You know I know Michael haha.
Happy Birthday!
Woke up feeling excited as ever,like it was my birthday!
Just to find out you're gone.

Silly me.

R.I.P

I roughly know how I will react if I EVER had a boyfriend.
(Still dislike boys though)
Thank you.

It seems like I can NEVER EVER FORGET MJ. I have no idea why.
Anything that crops up about MJ still makes me irritated. Like new songs,new cd,new yada yada and annoying haters turned all cherry sweet wishing 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY MJ'

UG.
Stop it.

Been lazy, dull and uninspired to do anything eventhough I had alot in mind and pictures that I can blog about.

SOON SOON.
XXXO

Hyper Hibernate.

2010-08-01T17:44:00.016+08:00

Dear Blog,

I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry for not updating sorrrrrry :(.
Forgive me okay?
It's just that I've been very busy and you can't deny I'm lazy too hehehe.
Will update naaaoooww meowww.

These pictures with high waist jeans were taken on the 3rd of July.
You guessed it! I love high waist!
Before I jump into my part 2 (30 July) , I've alot of news.
It's gonna be long so if you're sleepy, go and sleep.

July 2010 Updates.
Here are some highlights I can recall.

I used to look upon Tokio Hotel as a small time and hardworking band and tada they went to Hollywood! They deserve credit for that, and Bill kind of hot. BUT NOW NO. Thank you yes and when I like you consider yourself lucky because if that 'like' washed away,I will never like you back, either love or never .. okay back to the point- When I like them,they are still climbing up the mountain to fame and not popular material. (it's weird because whenever I like or talk about a certain celebrity,that someone become famous,uggggggg why? Kay I need to say my name alot of times now) When I like them,they are not coming to Singapore to perform but when I don't like them, they are coming to Singapore to perform WHAT THE?! Nevermind, this is life right? Furthermore the guys aren't hot as I thought they are anymore so whatever. I hate when a certain artists I like change.

5th- Late for a certain subject and almost reached to the destination but teacher advised me not to come. He marked me as present so took a train back again -_-.

8- Practiced a song about 3R for the class presentation. Was nervous and distracted by other songs and clips from other groups that I forgot the whole tune and even what to do on my first try! First ever 'performance' (not really) ,don't laugh. Did a 2nd try because I don't like to give up and I think it's just okay, not excellent and perfect as I want it to be. Oh well.

Now some of my classmates will remember for their whole life = Yasmin (Reduce Reuse Recycle) and sing it to me. I learn to be shameless though? HAHAHA. I mean laugh at me whenever you want. I don't have regrets and I have a backbone on my own unlike all of you, I mean I am still a human. I am good. Thanks.

I don't like when unknown numbers called you and asked alot of questions, for instance: 'Who are you?' Or people dying to convince you that you look like this and that and no you don't. There's a difference between remind and look like.
Dragonfly flew to my skirt,ewww and my sole of my shoe been ripped off,what an idiot. Imagine how I walked home :'(.
Some sellers failed= 'You have nice eyelashes' 5 seconds later 'Do you want to perm your eyelashes?' EURGGHH SO FAKE.

____

30 July 2010.

Yes yes ugly,after school change clothes and put on simple foundation which do not do me any justice,eyeliner. Where is Michael Jackson's skin? I need his skin right now so badly! I want a super smooth face.
Went out to buy some Mascot's stuffs with classmates.
Very sad can't order McDonald's breakfast as it was raining cats and dogs. I have to buy 8 Pizza Hut's spicy chicken from the canteen instead :'(. Still hungry so I went home eating 2 KFC enormous original chickens and mash potatoes,still hungry :'(. Someone slap me please.
Bought some stuffs and one of them: Cat's ears :D. Being 'thick skin', I walked around Orchard/D.G/Far East like that huahuahua.
Can't upload all pictures because candid pictures of my friends that's a no-no. I can feel some passengers were annoyed of our photo-takings haha.

Saeedah always treat me ice cream I LIKE. I HAVE A NEW FAVE. ICE CREAM FLAVOUR :D.
An Auntie? I assumed she wanted to help with our photo or join in? HEHE.

andddddddd nothing brightens up my day then wonderful messages.
Here are some:

I promise Serina and Xinyi if I ever become famous,they will be the first to be in my limo and discover first hand the life of the rich and famous haha.

LIKE I CAN :(

I'm ugly remember?

See you when I see you Bloggggeh :D.

Make me want some more,baby.

2010-07-01T20:27:00.012+08:00

Hello Everybodyyyyyyyyy.

Update:
26 June 2010

Went out with Fietriah :D.
Hope the puffiness of my eyes aren't obvious. Cried for my husband MJ.
Afraid of people staring but I taught myself how to ignore ;D Imagine there's paparazzi hahaha.
Stupid couple in MRT. When I'm alone,there's always couple romancing infront of me, UGGGGGGGG.
See brave enough to go Cityhall and back home alone,I know: LAME but if you were in my shoes you would know why I am afraid all along :(.

Cityhall> Marina Square> Esplanade and everywhere.
Gave my "business home made stuffs" to Fiet and cash yay :D. Hope you like it Fiet!

Before accompanying Fiet to a food court, there's this plump girl with super high heel GALLOPING DOWN THE ESCALATOR I'M NOT JOKING. Highlight of the day. I can't stop laughing! I almost caught out of breath when the two boys infront of me were giving each other "I'm-afraid-to-laugh-but-I-wanted-to" faces hahahaha. To add that emotions, the security guard behind us gave his insights that she didn't take her medicine etc HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA :'DDDD.

Ate at a food court and this black bird was being a brat! Flew to our table >:(!
Also looks like some people have no idea of what 'over-staring' means. The problem is they're all girls >:(.

I was waiting for the day to rain,it didn't! When I went out it's always sunny even though it's been flooding near Orchard days ago,WHYYY.
The same Model Agency approached few years ago, asked for numbers AGAIN etc. ZZZZ. Gave to them AGAIN but I won't be picking up the call. I'm afraid for that. Maybe after my face is completely flawless and if I reconstruct my face or something (ok joking) heh heh.

Esplanade: There's some white boys skating and thinking that falling from it over and over again are "cool" -_- and the songs from some bands made me laugh,sorry and bunch of Japanese wannabes I think shouted Hello,scary.
Gossiped and chit chat about cheap teenagers now.
National Day Parade Rehearsal? There's one point I felt there's bombing in Singapore. Honest.

THERE'S A BOOK SALE YAYYYYY. Bought 2.
When I was on the way back in the train,I imagined myself talking to MJ. Thinking of what will I be,what if I will do if I'm as huge as MJ,wonder if all the boys out there are nice,if anyone looks like MJ then ahahahahhaah I smiled to myself. Passengers thought I was being flirty to them,shit. So I frowned back hahaha mental patient here yoohoo. -_-

Enjoyed my day.
My mum said I need to stop looking so stuck up,what did I do?!?!?

So the next day,another outing.
27 June 2010

Out with Mahirah/Mahirawrrrrrrrrrrrrr hahahaa.
Orchard> Plaza Singapura> Bugis and random places tsktsk >:).
Again stupid couples.
Initial plan to buy mum a present but I didn't see a thing! Shit.

The same Model Agency, ok completely rejected it HAHAHHAA. Who knows a scam! The next day they called though so I left it ringing :X.
Mahirah bought shoes for her work and little did she know,she is SHOPPING. RARE SHOPPING HEHEHEHE. So I shopped too, bought jackets and I have a whole collection now and hell damn they're rare >:).
Bye bye $120/- T_T

Again book sales but the place that we went = creepy. Maids and foreigners get together eww and there's an exhibition for 'NERF OR NOTHING' PFTTTTTT. Something like 'super soaker' if you know what I mean.

Hi Michael Jackson :D.
My shoes = cramming my feet,owwww but still doing the MJ pose hahaha.
Bought bubble tea yummmmmmmmmm. Ok out of context.
Tired of scum bags= boys sorry the flirty ones.

Met mum halfway to this place and I was lost(a new environment with new idiotic rascals)
My feet = sore :'(. Tired really.

Read some news on the papers and some stuffs about fame the easy way with internet being the source. I mean if you become famous for nothing like Paris Hilton or Kim Kardashaisns whatever,then what for? Famous for being prostitutes? Woo way to go.NOT. And I scanned that some low lifers said things like "I'm nice and I hate ugly people and haters don't make you pretty" HAHAHAHHAHAHA I MEAN SERIOUSLY ALL who claim that shit looks ridiculously ugly,sorry yo. If you're nice,you don't criticise like that. And some rise to fame with youtube videos disturbing people and invade people privacy,you people do have a brain right? Use your popularity to make world peace or something positive. And you guess it right. Idiots are fans of idiots I suppose. HAHAHA, LAME. What's wrong with you people?! Good news doesn't sell so I supposed logical people don't sell as well? Need to change that. Fame and fortune used to be for people with exceptional talents and hard work now what has happened?

More pictures here:

25 June 2009.

2010-06-25T19:18:00.006+08:00

25 June 2009.
Saddest day of my life.
Why?

My favourite singer in the whole universe found dead.
One year death anniversary :(.
I always find him very unique and huuuuuuge
but he was always down to earth unlike other performers.
I was loyal,very loyal ever since I saw him in the tv (';.
Everyone would make fun of my taste of music but whose listening to what now?

I was always there,it's a pity he don't know me and regardless of anything,
I would never meet him, never, ever.
I can't even be him.
Strangely,he will always be there for me when I am in a bad state.

I remember eating in the washroom in school because
schoolmates hated me but listening to his song strengthens me
or coincidentally eating in the washroom and hearing people
gossiping about me there itself
and I survive being alone in school for months and years.

I survive when people called me names.
I don't even get it when people called me 'black'.

I survive when people laughed at me when I say what I wanted to be.

I survive when I was blamed for something I didn't do.

I survive when people vandalised my table and books and stole my papers and money.
The funny thing is I KNOW who the culprits were.

I survive when teachers been talking behind my back too.
Very shocking.

I survive alone as no one, not even my family would be free to hug
and say 'it's alright, everything is going to be fine'
So I would remember struggling but listening to you Michael,
makes my tears to smiles.

I remember my mum prayed for my happiness because I
was so cooped up in my room.
Prayed that I would had a friend like me but til now,
I don't get a friend that's like me although
my classmates I had now are a lot nicer.
My friend will be MJ though,I know weird.
But now,my friend will be me.
(';

I was no one favourite.
Only God knows what I had to go through.

I don't even care what he looks like,what he looks before.
No one can come close to his title. To me, he is the king of everything.
He's so versatile.
He's everything nice (:
He's everything to me.

Right now,I don't want anything or anyone to tell me about Michael Jackson.
I feel really annoyed when someone turns on his music,autobiography,concerts,anything
on the radio,on tv,wearing like him,anything and on anywhere.
I don't know why.
I will usually just cry under my sheets and hope tomorrow will be a better day
and somehow my life would make sense and I would find the answers
on my existence.

Goodbye Michael J.
R.I.P 1958-2009.

If I had you,that would be the only thing I need.

One Month Disappearing Anniversary

2010-06-21T17:59:00.013+08:00

Happy One Month Disappear Act,Ms. M/Y.
I realised the word 'anniversary' doesn't make sense here
considering I was away only a month hahaha.
HAHA. I'm back.

Look at the picture and tell me what my life have in common with it?

Easy,I'm always left out. I'm the girl on the right hahaha.
While people are having fun, I don't feel the urgency to join in.
I love being alone.
(:.

Thanks Knight. PFFFT.

Ever-since I'm gone,okaaaay I went hibernating hahahahahahha, I found out some
things that I hate/dislike.
You can agree,you can hate,I don't care.
Yo,you don't have to listen to me and I don't have to listen to you.
(;.

1. I hate when people have high expectations of you and you just lose it.

Don't you? Or you have to be the leader and when you lost something, a sudden urge where the leader have to take the blame? Or when everyone did a great job but you put the hardest work but the credits went out to everyone? (This seems fine to me) But when you did your best and the results aren't what you think it is and you have people saying 'you should try harder,i expect you ... '. That's not the least nice to put it. Why? BECAUSE YOU HAVE TRIED YOUR BEST. And when you state that, the answer will be 'you have to try even harder',y'know sometimes that's not even true. Sometimes it's just not meant to be.

2. I don't find the logic of some people getting everyone to know everything on the net.

Like
'Hi my name is

(full name)

ARE YOU SERIOUS?!

I am
(state your mixed race sometimes it doesn't make any sense)
DO YOU HAVE something to hide? You surely know half of douche idiots are going to tell you otherwise that you don't look like what 'mixed' race/race you state. And you surely be flamed if you don't even look like your race in the first place. And somehow these people find it 'superior' being a 'different' race. Very weird. I will just know if you're being humble. (:

My parents

(state everything, yet again)

WHY ?! Your parents will be very sad/mad if ever you write something very incredibly bad about them,don't you think? So why do it?

My boyfriend

(state all your relationship problems)

I don't get it,it should be between you and him/you and her. You don't want everyone to know all your private details and what you did/do,it's like no shame,my god.Quite frankly,people like me don't give a shit but it's just sad you want to flame your other party that way,be mature unless that someone cheats you or something HAHAHA. Still leaking your partner 'tapes' won't get any better. IDIOT.

I work at
(state full address)

and currently I'm staying at
(address)

If you whine about you being followed,
I think you're an idiot.

I mean do I even have to say this?
-_-

Righhhhhhhhht.

3. When people thinks it's funny to match-make you with someone.

Funny huh? My foot. You see I've 0 ex,no boyfriends ever. When I was a 'little' kid,I don't understand anything,I treat everything and every guy as a game and even when I was so called stupid back then (to me),I never did things like youngsters now. I observe every 'lover birds' in school,outside school and none make it far,some even got pregnant,y'know typical kids do. I came to a point where I need no man. I decide that very early in my life. So please don't argue with me when I say I've no ex,thank you. Never had a serious relationship with anyone because I don't find a need to do so. Don't come knocking on my comfort zone and try to change things around because I can live on my own. I don't need anybody,not you you you and YOU! and I don't need any morons to try to 'spice up my life'. I'm not an idiot to say 'boys are idiots' though,I know some aren't but I just don't need them. Not now HAHAHA.

4. When people show public affection IN PUBLIC.
I don't have to say anything,do I?
AWW SO SWEET AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
GIVE YOU MY SLAP POWER,SHUT UP,IT'S ICKY especially if you're like what?
16? EW.

Who goes to court with dirty hands? HAHAHA.

5. REMAKES.
Any types of remakes, Music,Movie,Advertisements,Tributes etc. Y'know the original will always be best. People been hyping over 'Karate Kid 2010'. Y'know what? BORINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.
Nothing annoys me than Michael Jackson remix,tributes,this that,I don't know,
just not happening .
Thank you hahahaha :D.

Pictures from a month ago HAHA :D.

Such a cute girl.
Birthday cakes.

Parts from a card made for father's day.
Presents (:(:(:(:
M.A.C bought by mum,is it good?
Witness first hand,I took that after waking up from bed hahaha.

Go ahead,laugh. This just shows that you shouldn't believe anything from the net. Especially websites saying this that or you look like ____. HAHAHA.

Update soon,I promise.
Sorry for some harsh reality talk from me.
XXXXXX.

Runawayyyy.

2010-05-20T19:28:00.021+08:00

So... M.I.A again. Sorry.
Nahhh. Who the hell still here on my page anyways?
(I thank you hehe)
Update 15 May 2010.

Went out with Saeedah/Aeda. Consider as the first classmate 2010 that I went out with!
Believe it or not,I hate to look at my face :/.
I was 1 and a half hour EARLY,in other words Aeda was 1 and a half hour LATE! I was freaking pissed,not gonna lie. It's torture,such a lucky instinct that I didn't wait out of the ticket booth so I sat at the bench in the MRT. Funny how it was hot and stuffy! I hate to wait >:(.

While I was waiting,I observed a whole lot of wackos, know-it-all 'GLEE' style pricks (I don't really like the sound of that), fashion "beauty" queens, drama mama, foreigners ( if they do not disturb me,I am fine) BUT THE IRRITATING OF IT ALL: 2 Philippine ladies trying to find their way back home so they look at the information board. Sounds fine right? I was near the board unfortunately. WHICH PART OF "HELLO I AM SITTING HERE" CAN'T SHE SEE? There's obviously space for you to sit,hella sit there,you DON'T HAVE TO SUFFOCATE ME WITH YOUR "I ASSUME' UNWASHED BUTTS UP TO MY NOSE AND SAT BESIDE ME LIKE A GLUE. EWWWW?! Also to tell you if you think you are all that,sorry I've seen so much better (:. EW.

Another day, another Philippine lady pissed my friends and I off. No not being racist. We were standing behind yellow line outside trains the other day,I REMEMBERED so are other "ANGELIC" schoolboys I PROMISE YOU THEY LOOK LIKE ANGELS! Also standing behind yellow line (basic courtesy for people that are in the MRT to step out first),the train stopped and she went out with a FREAKING PRAM RUSHING OUT AND DARE SHOUTED TO THE "ANGELIC" BOYS TO wait for their turn to go in?! WHAT THE CENTS?! WAIT? You lady wait 10 years later luh. It's called the 'MRT', we can only wait for few long seconds and go in. If we don't want to go in, we will never stand there in the first place. The "Angelic" boys apologised! SERIOUS EVEN WHEN THEY'RE NOT IN THE WRONG! SHE sternly yelled 'so rude!'. WHAT IS FREAKING RUDE ABOUT THAT?! YOU WAIT,IF EVER I MEET YOU AGAIN. For now,whenever the train doors open,I imitate "SO RUDE" and my whole clan will laugh upon that incident. No more inside jokes yeaaaaaa. >:).

Okay continue,wow what a long entry!

Where was I? Oh..

So pissed off. But after Aeda came,I wouldn't be that angry anymore. Why? She promised to treat me hehehehehe. :D. After all we were there to go out and catch a movie!
Then another problem: We do not know where is the destination. -_-
Rushing. Rushing just like the movie 'The Runaways'. HONEST! :D.
Orchard>Somerset>Orchard>Somerset (I think?) > Dhoby Ghaut> Home. Means Run, Brisk Walking, Cab, Train, Run, Walk, Run. Train. See 'The Runaways'.
Another problem: Movie booked, Movie sold out, Movie late at night, WE GAVE UP. :(.
I'm sad.

On the brighter side, ate ice cream, funny ice cream seller though. I can't stop laughing thinking about the old seller man tsktsktsk.
The particular place we tend to eat was empty and full of smoking zone,after we came,there's photo taking one after another. WHAT THE?! Let us eat in peace!
Aeda treat me Cab, ice cream and 'happy birthday' balloon although my birthday has passed! (:
GOSSIP :D.
Enjoy personal stories: MAM :D. *Inside joke*
Lorry trying to cut our taxi's queue *another inside joke* It's a joke right Aeda?

In train kept laughing,too happy.
Aeda filled my day with hearty laughs (:.
Bought 2 books,one was a waste of money, going to sell it. -_- Gah.
Sadly the day was too short :(

So go out again next time kay?
Waited for mum :/.
Bought 2dollars drink and waited for food again :((.
Mum's colleague bought me wonderful presents!
Added to my family+friend lists' presents (MY BDAE!!) mania :D.

Today lesson: PATIENCE :(.
Fun day nevertheless. Update soon AGAIN HEHEH.

Which is better? HEHEHEH :D.

More pics:
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Whats up with music now?

2010-05-02T16:37:00.011+08:00

''I'm sick and tired of sell out artists. I don't get the thrill of seeing entertainers stripping and whatnot. Get me someone new and oh while you're getting at it,remind that SOMEONE to be more of an influential artist with A LOT OF CLOTHES ON THAT SINGS MEANINGFUL LYRICS. Music business must have been WAY BAD NOW. If you have some trouble,come find me,I WILL manipulate your freaking perverts minds. Thank you.''

- Meanpheyaszmyn.

Honestly I am sick of everything. If there's no one else,call me. I "REVOLUTIONALISE" FOR THE WHOLE WORLD,I PROMISE. All I see on videos now are racy and explicit content which then will have to categorise into either 'adult theme/mature theme' or 'explicit'. DAMN IT. WHAT HAS GONE WRONG WITH THE WORLD OR THE MUSIC INDUSTRY FOR THAT MATTER?

No wonder the "new generation" are getting out of hand.
No wonder marriages now went to divorce because of adult videos *cough*. Pathetic ya?

I want music to be enjoyed with everyone and every age. Sure last time I checked, having the 'F' word is bad. Now it's as though EVERYONE is using it and worst still, sounds like everyone has limitations of vocabulary. Having to take your clothes off is absolutely not 'celebrating woman body' AT ALL. Ever wonder why woman now have body issues? It's making use of your body and it's simply being cheap especially to perverts. Celebrate? My ass.

Wait until one day these artistes have children of their own and they became a HUGE WRECKS LIKE THEMSELVES.Unless they are proud of having a slut or a jerk in their house or are their children even going to spend their days in their house? It's funny how I see some artistes corrupt the young minds but do not want the same thing to happen to their "loved" ones. Hypocrisy.

I don't care how good anyone looks anymore,anyone can get plastic surgery and deny.

I don't care how everyone idolise ANYONE,one can be a fake for all I care.

I don't care how good anyone looks, most are shameless and used.

I don't care how successful anyone are,maybe one cheats money to climb to the top.

I don't care how anyone high their ranks or educations are anymore, you can be the most senile and pretentious morons who never succeed in life and in return I have to tell to you why? And when you answer why,I have to respond 'because you have no respect and values for others,all you care is about YOU'.

I don't care how many grammy(s) one gets,one still don't impress me,one may be the LEAST original artist ever sold out by music company.They may even be a whole sum of unacknowledged entertainers-to-be out there. It's just unfair. It doesn't make any sense.

I'm afraid.
I'm afraid I might be the only one who thinks this way.

Mad World.
I'm living in a MAD WORLD.

For now,I will drown in my sadness. Please don't copy paste this.

Sincerely Meanpheyaszmyn.
TTYL WORLD.

I am kind of beeezaaay.

2010-04-17T14:56:00.015+08:00

Sorry once again and again and again. Like the title, it says everything.
I am busy. Beeezaaaay=busy just in case you dont know haha.
DELAYED POST.

So let me recall what Mahirah and i did last Thursday,
08.04.2010.
Awesome date.

I love highwaist, nuff' said ;D.
ICA>Bishan>DEEPER ehem ehem>T.P?>Save n shop>HOME.
Again super nice woman Mahirah waited for me all the way from her ohsofar home to mine and send me home yet again ;D. Even deduct a $2 for my bloody sake :'(. Thankyou.
I.C.A guess what? My passport picture looks like bloody ___. THANK YOU SO MUCH BLOODY SINGAPORE ____ AND WHOEVER YOU ARE,DESTROYED EVERY INCH OF MY PASSPORT PICTURE AND FACE. Sure whenever there's passport taking,i automatically dont know how to smile,damn. Making black and white aint making this any better. THANK YOU EH,NOT! Mahirah do continue to laugh at it :'(.

I.C.A bag check,no comment pfft. Thank you right contact lense for making everyone in the washroom never want to try wearing one,ok thats good?
The staff = very AHMAZING! Forget to ask me to sign my own passport,woo. FABULOUS. I asked a policeman how and such etc,ok i understand you guys did shouting and whatnot practically your whole life? but PLEASE DONT SHOUT AT ME!
Stop staring at me luh,at least im wearing something decent rightttt. No slippers,shorts and singlet thank you.

Another AHMAZING thing i see,part-time students smoke just outside their school,wooo FANTASTIC then please dont stare at us,we are obviously not like you,we do not smoke outside school,bloody chickens. WE DO NOT SMOKE FOR THAT MATTER.

Whenever i see this picture i cant help but laugh and say
"Nothing comes between me and my jeans"

I love my teacher,the thing is that what she said makes my day!

Let me see,here are what she stressed on:

'look so different' almost 10 times hahahahahaha.
'Is this how you usually wear?' ALL TOGETHER: 'SO DIFFERENT'
'WEAR SO EXPENSIVE'
'Look like those teenager teenager teenager..' This part i was frowning i thought i look lame but .. 'the tv show'. I asked 'Tyra banks, American next top model?'. 'YAH THAT' HAHAHAHAHAHA OMG no im too ugly to be an American model,almost say 'American Idol' :/.

You see i am like a different person mould into one. In school i act like im in school,i think except for jackets,bags,shiny shoes,tiara :/.
God knows how and what i am out of school hehehe but im not like any other girls,no no no.
Dont worry. Mahirah and i are good kids. 'WE IZ GOOD KIDZ' Hehe.

and all other advice that i will remember.
Thank you Ms Wong for everything.
Mahirah was waiting for our long talk so i handed her presents and such
and up to our own tricks: CAMERA :D.

Went to places we never been before.
Bought snacks i longed to have.
Was busy not to get my money mixed up. Suddenly an old man shocked the lights out of me 'BE CAREFUL. DONT LET YOUR MONEY DROP AH'. -_- Ok wait i was looking down,imagine how i stopped when he warned me that.
The next day Dee,happy belated birthday yes. Hope you like my present! (;

"90 KIDSXSXZ"
:D

1 week:gone. Another bloody years to go. I dont know whats up with me and bloody.
We have issues. School was okay,update on that soon. I prefer keeping a low profile on my life unless i want fresh air. Not sure if that's possible as some people i dont want to read,well are here. Cant wait for Incredible tales and Ghost Whisperer although my Jennifer Love Hewitt,sorry to say has lost her beauty that i love years ago and the thrill to the story. So much i find it very boring every week :(

:''(

I hate school? :( I want holidays forever. I don't want to grow up.
I want to live with Peter Pan and Michael Jackson
and fly :(.
I hate Mondays and Tuesdays and almost every lesson and I like silence.
I want NO NOISE :(.

On the brighter note:
Cant wait for my cheque on Monday :D

More pictures here:
WORLD BEHIND MY WALL.

Crazy & Krazy

2010-04-02T18:24:00.008+08:00

31 March 2010 (Last Day of March)

Went out with Ms Krazy: Faree a.k.a Danny or Luke?
B>Beside B>Faree's Crib>Home.
Dad in a good mood therefore some money given (:.
A bug flew in my room while i am getting ready(ewwww) but its gone :/.

Faree's room looks professional,whoaaaa.
Bye bye $111/- :( and (:. I dont know to smile or cry. HAHA.
Bought some stuffs,tempted to buy more! THE SHOES :'(
Watch 'Telephone' By Gaga/Honey B=LAME(cough unoriginal) . The beat and rhythm=okay,nonsense lyrics. Wasting time,sweat and every single money on the video,ew ew ew ew. Corrupted minds. We wasted our time too.
I dislike Beyonce more than ever but i like her guts, her expressions.
I dislike Gaga too,clearly, haha but i like her confidence and that she dress whenever&whatever she likes. Not really my cup of tea to my ears and eyes and mind etc but to me if youre a celebrity,you need to dress up,it should be fun! Of course i think she REALLY SHOULD cover up her skin more. Very useful especially,sorry,i really thought GAGA is a guy.
See i do have good things to say about the people i dislike. I have learn to appreciate everyone throughout the holidays (:.
Okay that was weird.

Faree wants to sell her jacket,maybe i will buy from her haha!
Hope she will never forget me,friends do come and go.

Whatever happens,i do hope everyone appreciates one another. I am still finding myself and figuring why God has created me,i feel like a waste in this planet,i think i was and still a mistake to everyone. To my family to my friends to every single stranger. I really shouldnt be here. Im every word thats disgusting to you. The world is corrupted.

Sincerely,Yasmin.

K more pictures here:
HAW HAW HAW.

You have departed alive.

2010-03-31T00:18:00.004+08:00

Wewww another update coming right up.

27 March 2010:

Grandma House!
CATS HEHEHEHEHEH NEKO NEKO :D
Uncle made my day!
Some things are better left unsaid.
Took passport picture,i look like _____. I want self passport photo taking,can i?

28 March 2010:

Went to Egypt Exhibition as a family.
Rude Cabby, made a complaint.
Very exciting but were packed with tourists and normal also WEIRD people.
Before Egypt, explore more about Singapore History and were handed with cool gadgets!
Everything was smooth as hell UNTIL the left earphone suddenly stopped working -_-.

The cool gadgets were taken away before going into the Egyptian Exhibition :(
I was happy since im able to take pictures provided no flash are used.
Luckily we entered early,we dont even need to queue up hehe.
Simply dont understand some people,one person do,all follow. There was this colouring thing also making origami pyramids and before we know it.. BAM EVERYONE IS doing it. So that explains the crowded area at one specific place HAHA.

Glided our way through and saw lots of artifacts,mummies etc.
Some people followed my dad's pose HAHA creative DAD \m/
A phrase i saw scares me 'You have not departed dead,you have departed alive' Ooookay.
What spoiled the fresh air was seeing some of couples hugging,kissing (ew damnit theres children,mind you uh) and typical people, CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?! TYPICAL PEOPLE? Ok so i thought everyone is allowed who am i? BUT they laughed at every artifacts,im like 'whats so funny? This is the time to learn and admire their culture'. Destroyed all appetites for all family gatherings there,i feel you mums and dads! Can they just leave? Even if there are projects to be done,dont be so 'AMAZED' -_-.

My brother made me laugh like hell!
Went to favourite restaurant at Tanjong Katong. Wrong day to wear my outfit -_-.
Despite my sudden cramps,I ATE CHOCOLATE ICE CREAM AND LYCHEE AND EVERYTHING COLD YUM \m/.
Walked about and home. I love my family. If ever i reach the heights of the rich,richer and richest,im going to pay every ounce to my family.

Ok tomorrow is a long day,you know what that means update soon HAHA.

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HELLO.

Go to the park,man.

2010-03-29T19:58:00.005+08:00

BOO!
Late update,why? Been going out without a break :(

I am hooked to this way of life,i just want to enjoy! So please dont ever remind me of school. I dont want school to start,NO NO NO.

Again out with Mahirawr. And again to my hometown to see me hehehe.
26 March 2010 when is that? Ok a Friday.
Next time youre bored,go to a park (:. WAIT! I mean to relax and take a fresh air.
Walked far miles away, exercise?
Im feeling happy but tired.
AND IT RAINS YAY :D.
Return DVD and i cant help but to gawp at some sellers and people remarks.
We both laughed on how some expatriates dont make sense on how they communicate or arent knowledgeable about their products. Few keen Philippine ladies came on to girls about their hair and how they should take care of theirs with their product WHICH USES heat -.- The best thing is coming to a lady for a hair makeover when she just stepped out of a saloon. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Sorry cant help it. We both said 'no' EAGERLY before anything happens.

Bought two paddle pops and we craved for maggi, seriously weird.
Talked to couple of people who are busy cycling,jogging HAHAHAA. MAKE FRIENDS.
A jogger actually praised us for the long km we walk,woo.
A cyclist commented 'COOL PANTS' ;D

Next post up soon,
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Back.

2010-03-25T20:10:00.010+08:00

Sorry for the long hiatus. Been sleeping a lot lately HAHA.
Maybe or maybe yes,maybe baby? I will share what i did last few months?
Move aside and i tell you about last Monday.

Met Mahirah.
Who else can endure waiting for me to my hometown ( she stays so far away honest!) just for an outing? And after all set and done send me back again? :>
And yes she's older than me haw haw.
We went out with a promise to buy legendary ice cream (PADDLEPOP).
Wore gold skirt, didnt know it was so short,nah who cares hahahaha.

Window shopping,didnt shop but washroom-ing alot,BLAME MAHIRAH.
Orchard Central>Somerset>313>Hometown.
313 = boring. I dont understand whats all the fuss about?
Money was spent for Mahirah, snacks and more snacks.
Photos photos and more photos.

The day was surprising,i expect a rainstorm. I wore a hot top thus sweating for nothing :(
Dogs hauled and i happened to see a ghost up in a tree so we stopped taking pictures at that particular place.
Flirty guys ok not their fault but over flirty guys uhhh ok nevermind.
Mahirah says i have a sexy+fierce look :D although i think im still ugly anyways hahahahahahaa and i still hope for a super smooth face!

Lastly: MJ is alive, with me (:.

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LOVE.

Green day = Awesome concert!

2010-01-16T01:34:00.015+08:00

So the day before Green day, i went to Swensens.
Baked chicken rice isnt what i thought it should be -.-
Ice cream is what i thought it should be haha.
Went out with brother and motherrrrrr.

So 13 January isnt any biggie.

CONTINUE TO 14 JANUARY 2010!

GREEN DAY. NOT TO MENTION FIRST EVER CONCERT WOO!
Been waiting for this, i dislike paramore. Not much of a fan of saosin,rise against etc,muse,florence and the xx's,the killers and stuff so rather go green day. I mean Green Day is so much more experienced than the other bands that are coming,heh heh. So why not?

Went with my crazy longtime friend: FAREE!
Sorry to keep you waiting for half an hour? :/
Saw Daniel and chatted for awhile.
Reached to meet Faree. Little did we know we were so caught up with our conversation that we missed the real destination -.-. Still manage to take cab hahahhaa. The driver was polite,i like that!
Saw freaking long queue,shit crazy fans are damn early.
Drizzle for few minutes and i hate it, girls know how hard it is to avoid straighten hair from water at all cause! Or when wind strikes!
Did spot check hahahaha funny, felt like an outsider trying to ruin Green Day -.-

Was quite pissed, i mean if you came later,stay behind of the ring man,dont dash all your way to the front. Standing behind tall and bulky men makes me angry too,i mean let midgets to the front but oh wells we will always have a plan HAHAHA. MOVE TO THE FRONT AT SOME POINT (;.
Opening act called 'Prima Donna'. Dont laugh,a band of guys. Hot singer. The bad side of it,i hate chatty morons,i mean shut up and stop with your stupid nonsense about your stupid classmates and craps or what the technicians are doing,i dont want to know. Cant really see and not all enjoy the act of Prima Donna,feel bad for them. I would enjoy the show if i knew theres moshpit -_-
Hated guys with huge balls,im sorry but seriously ew :/. Ask Faree how that feels HAHAHAHAHHA.
Believe it or not,i didnt eat for that whole day,new to this concert stuff and moshpit, feeling sweaty (sounds not like me right?),damage run down makeup and explosive ugly hair with face that looks like im having third degree burn, a midget or something BUT SURVIVED HAHA. HONESTLY I DONT WANT PEOPLE TO LOOK AT ME,I LOOK SO UGLY! *bimbo moment*
I pushed some assholes so hard for moshpit,it felt good >:). Some dashed their way out though,hope they are okay. I know how they felt,i almost lost my HAIR AND BAG :/

Great songs,great band,great voice,great energy.
Billie says we are louder than America :D.
Mike looks disturb? HAHA
First time in Singapore and i love them!
Didnt waste my $$. REALLY.
HAPPY but sad didnt meet them face to face,i wish i could some day. Wants to have a band! UG.
2 hours and more of performance,that long for a concert,COOL!
Booked a cab,angry drivers hate it,at last found one! And Faree thanks for every single thing!
Faree's dad paid for our cab's fees,woo thankyou!

Free souvenirs!
Went home almost 1plus/am. The latest to home. Also means 'need to be careful not to see any ghosts time' HAHAHA.
The next day kinda lose my voice hahahaha,leg cramps,headache and ended up eating like theres no tomorrow. Not sure how Faree drag herself to school? Im sleeping all day,no school hehe. Faree see you again soon.
I wonder who else went there? HMM (:
I think i might be going to another concert hehehehe.
Also a good photographer doesnt mean you have to buy expensive camera. You can have a camera like mine and work it. (;

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Walking on sunshine.

2010-01-12T20:00:00.016+08:00

Jan 10 2010 = 01.10.2010. Good number and date for shopping? Haha.
Went out with a girl younger than my age: Fiet!
She looks shorter and i look taller in pictures. In life? The opposite,really!
Shopping on a sunday? Bad day to shop,freaking packed!
Travel alone :D. ACCOMPLISHMENT HAHA. You see ive phobia with people.
Bugis>Arab Street>Malay recreation>Home.
Day is very hot.

I dont lie and i dont exaggerate when i mean some Singaporeans are nuts. I dont find wearing what i wore very 'different',im tired of stares.

I dont get it why a harajuku girl walks, noone wants to pay attention to her,why me? Crazy morons. REALLY IM NOT JOKING. Ask Fiet. If you want my leggings,i give it to you >:(!

Boys: Tights and Leggings are different thing,get that in your head,thank you.
Another thing is im not fat,so i dont mind wearing it. Tights are 'see through',not leggings. I dont wear to impress people,i wear by my rules. So if you dont like it,too bad eyy :D.
Im actually good at bargains,haw haw haw.
Blame the weather and shopping on crowded areas,my makeup melted haha.
Spend $100/- on stuffs. Bye $$$ but hello jacket/pants etc hahaha.
L.J.S again,bye $$$$ haha,im going to switch to something else instead of 8 shrimps and fries all the time.

Talked about how we hate 'smoking'
Gossiped hahahaa.
Laughing at flirts and we dont find 'hey you look kinda cute' /'Can i take pictures with you' remarks a reason to entertain strangers. SORRY EHH!
Somehow haters say they 'hate me etc' but upon seeing them reading my blog and doing pointforms like i do makes me want to punch them in the face :D

Fiet sent me home halfway,thank you! Im scared of the attention seriously. I dont want it!
Fiet you rawk :D!
Saw Shazana halfway hahaha and chatted ;D
OH GOTTEN TOP 5% YAWSXXXSSSSZZZ but not fond of graduation ceremonies gaaah.
To O levels and anyone: Those who make it: Good job and get on with it well. Those who dont: Dont give up. Doesnt mean you have a longer route,you wont make it in life. YOU PROBABLY WILL. YOU WONT IF you think the 'shorter' route is the way to go and take some school by peer pressure,'no more choices' or 'oh i dont want this and this because bad reputation' or 'i want to look cool in this school'. You will have choices. YOU DECIDE. Nothing to be embarrassed about.

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2010.

2010-01-06T19:03:00.011+08:00

2009.

Love God,somehow ALWAYS help me.
Had good classmates.
Gotten myself great (straight A's) results eventhough i wanted to quit school.
Have the best teachers who discover my potential and like me for who i am!
Believe everything happens for a reason.
Challenge myself to talk infront of people and i cant believe im confident enough!
Have the last weeks sleeping and relaxing like theres no tomorrow.
I love staying at home hehe. (doing nothing)
I never knew im creative! It sells!
Had great family and acquaintances.
I dont need a man or best friends to live. I can live alone (:
Try/Get some new things: Lenses,Online Shopping,Get Along With People After Misunderstandings,Being A Leader (eventhough love doing projects alone!),Pottery, Facial,Skipping Physical Education For Many Weeks,New Handphone hehehe etc.
An outdoor birthday haha!
Wear something so 'princessy' to school everyday: Tiara,bangles,necklaces,shiny shoes,sweaters,everchanging bags,'butterfly' hahahaha. I dont care if im being laughed at,i feel good. At least i dont go to school looking like a beggar or typical girls.
Reading people like a book,hmmmm (:.
Overcome those sadness : Michael Jackson's death,the past with noone comforting etc. Sometimes God wants to test you,sometimes if youre having a hard time,it may not be something that you did,he wants to test your patience.
Have this 'what-the-heck' attitude whenever there's no constructive comments given,who cares?
I like to dance haha.

2010.

Nothing much? Houseworks :D.
Can be alert without sleeping a day hehe.
Love at first sight: Cute waiter damn it,my mum knew about it and not mad? :D
New collections of accessories and jackets and dresses :D. Need to buy new wardrobe i think?
Going to a concert VERY SOON!
Made the closest friend with girl younger than me: FIET :D
Go out with absolutely no makeup,super messy and cramps,ask Faree and Syafiqa haha.
Going to decorate my room,PAINT MY OWN 'MURAL' HAHA!
Found some people who deserve their punishments hahaahhaa. 'What goes around comes back around'.
I still will keep my 'rockstar' dreams alive HAHAHAH!
I can dance,can sing (ok not sure), maybe upload videos here ;D.
I like guys with mole below their lower lip :3.

Maybe there's alot of stores for me this 2010? My holiday just began haha!
I know January? I will not be having school for awhile now,so im going to enjoy,MUST!
Hehe. See you laterrrrr.

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Its fair and square.

2010-01-04T19:29:00.021+08:00

So there it goes, the winner of Singapore Idol 2009 is Sezairi Sezali! The one i had my eyes and EARS on (Im not those screaming fangirls or voted alot, just happen to like him as an entertainer,nothing more) and the one i hope to win the moment he sang 'Faith'. Eversince then he's the best.

Dont get me wrong. I am not those Singapore Idol fan,never and not once vote for this(but always keen to know the winner though haha!) but there's something about him that is fresh and unique. He deserved to win in my point of view and he is my favourite among all the other Singapore Idols finalists and even previous idols.

Beware i guess this will be a long post.
I know how yesterday topic, i know but some people ARENT.

HATERS
Its been already what? One week and still making racist remarks and comments like youre any better than him? Sure Malay idol wins three times in a row but i see no wrong it this? So what? I say nothing beats than an action. Theres nothing special with typical idol who can sing with package but still is BORING. Dont interest me.at.all.

If you want his contender to win,vote. Dont be 'stingy' ,vote. Somehow good uh Singapore Idol the best winner=all the money in the world. Thats how the show goes just like the one you see in American Idol,VOTE. The one who has the 'like' factor will win. If you think it should be the judges choice and sms votes combine,who are you? The producer?Then it should be made clear as the new rule for ALL THE IDOLS in the world.

Rather than being 'keyboard losers' who hides behind the computer,i suggest you do something else? Theres more to life,right,for you? So what if you think the minority vote for him alot,its good what. Its TEAMWORK like the one they teach you in school ;D.

The funny thing is the Media says that results of votes arent to be revealed. So whats the point in sending letters. Some of you said that 'oh because the votes are almost the same,Sylvia should win!' Oh really? If thats the case wouldnt they want to publicise it since the media are too supportive of wanting a female idol to win? I say the results: Mostly Sezairi's votes.

The thing to be changed maybe uh the judges. They need to be more professional especially in the way they converse. All they ever think is what? Money? As much as i dont mostly agree with Simon Cowell,i want Simon to judge please. HAHA. I see theres too many 'Simon Cowell wannabe in every idol',i dont like it. Oh ya 'please be original and less of favouritism'. Maybe new judge? Anita Sarawak for a change? (Hinting on something too!) :D

Media shouldnt use race as an issue here. I dont understand why they have to bring it up when its such a sensitive issue? Ohhhh Media equals money. Got it.

Why him?
Well. He connects with the crowd. Ok fine he has out-of-tune moments before the final but with his hardwork,he has improved. He can write,he can play guitars,he can sing almost jump to another genre,funny,original,someone say 'versatile'? Most importantly,he is humble.

He is able to deliver the best performance that night without his emotions of 'I feel like a winner already'. Heard that before? His contender said that 'I feel like a winner already'. Righttttttt. Did she promise to book a chalet for all her friends and fans earlier on? Or is that a promise 'only if she wins?'

People have been saying 'HOW WELL' Charice can sing but nah to me it bores me to death. Sure nice voice but dont appeal to me, i was watching and i find it nothing special,theres someone out there who can sing and connect with me better. Really.

Lastly, those who have voted for him good job. Not saying Sylvia is that bad,shes okay. Ive nothing against her fans but just dont go overboard just because she didnt win such as pathetic groups: Sylvia should have won or Sezairi dont deserve it etc.

Quit whining,move on and lastly GROW UP. He wins,he won,he dont care about his haters. Have you ever heard of 'I dont care about people who talks about me and i dont know they exist?' Yeah. Something like that. Talk about him,somehow he is getting all the attention.

Congrats Sezairi,you deserved the glory.

If you dont agree with me,its okay.

Everyone has opinions but one thing fo' sure,ive my opinions too :D.

So?

2009-12-16T18:11:00.016+08:00

I manage to get my ass out of my sweet ass bed haha.

Nothing much though except i hate unreasonable comments.

It takes more than words to bring me down.

Previous post comment is funny tsktsk especially

when its the same person who disguise using other names?

Infact ive been through alot,it isnt a big deal

but an entertainment.

Whenever there's Adam Lambert's song 'For Your Entertainment',

i always laugh thinking about all the craps ive got.

And its nothing funnier than hate tags!

Ive got weird comments too!

Look:

It never made me laugh any harder HAHA.

Some need to be careful!

Again my life wouldn't be more sugary treats,

ITS HILARIOUS HAHA!

Im not sure whether Mr Marc Defang

trying to say Motherf. or he is just being funny.

Its a guy right? HAHA. FUNNNNNNNNNNNNNY.

Just another excuse for saying curse word OUT LOUD HAHA.

"MATHUR F. uh you guys"

Tsk tsk tsk.

Actually im gonna give Faree earful remarks.

Then 'nevermind' because she went overseas when i need some info.

My mum booked tickets for us nevertheless,YAY YAY!

Although im not a big fan of this band,im willing to go to experience

and accompany my friend.

If Faree dont remember this,im gonna sulk.

MANY MANY THANKS MUM!

Yay concert HERE FAREE AND I COME!

&& nothing is more relaxing than talking to Bee/Fiet.

Laughing non-stop , lets gossip another day HAHAHA.

\m/

Damn my mum is right,i naturally sulk.

No wonder noone wants to break the ice with me

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. THATS COOL.

Whats not cool is i havent clean my room

so i wont do any new me and new blog and all new stuffs,

damnit.

Few months back after MJ died,

if you havent notice,im on this remembrance lists:

Here:

HAHAHA.

"FOR THE FIRST TIME IN HISTORY,ITS RAINING MEN!"

HAHAHAHAHAHAHH!
See you soon.

Hopefully.

2009-12-09T20:01:00.009+08:00

GREETINGS.

First and foremost. SEZAIRI IS INNNNN. WOO

TOP 2 but i think he will be the 3rd Singapore Idol.

Hopefully.

Aminah scare the hell out of me when she texted me.

The message she sent was 'im not happy with the result'

I was 'WHAT DOES SHE MEAN BY THAT?!'

I thought this is the end.

Meanwhile.. Bee and Aisyah told me that SEZAIRI IS IN.

Then Aminah called and told me she wasnt happy with

the top 2 and that the other contestant got booted out.

Ohhh.. relieved haha. As y'know she has a contagious laugh,

i laughed too, ;D.

Just for the record,this is the first time ive voted few times for

a lame show called SG IDOL.

&& i never watched any of their performance

until the top 2 or when Sezairi is there or results (i will cover my ears).

Other than that,i watched DVDs, other shows etc.

Im not good with handling results hahaahha!

I will have to consider these pictures old. Pardon my tired bull face haha.

Pictures from sunday,old?! HAHA.

Its has been SUCH A LONG time since my family did this outing thingy.

Walked alot,ate alot and bought 2 awesome jackets.

Thanks MUM! I dont know why but she seems to spend alot.

Hmmm.

Anywayyy thanks family?

Bro for making me laugh haha.

Mum is angry,saying some things.

Bro: Do you want to join the Amazing race? You will be famous.

*Pause*

Bro: Famous nagger. This cannot,that cannot etc.

All (except mum of course) : *Laughs*

(Inside joke)

Bro: She looks like a complete idiot,even BRITNEY SPEARS IS A BEAUTY.

Me: HAHAHAHA WHAT THE HEAVEN.

Kamil taught me.

What did i manage to do during the holidays?

Honestly, nothing rather than computer,sleep,okay.

This is it,ive to REALLY WAKE UP AND STOP PROCASTINATE!

which obviously i wont stop doing haha.

These holidays are cool,raining season means SLEEPING YAY!

I LOVE DOING NOTHING :D.

But when im struggling or doing something i always work hard.

Now doing nothing,i am being lazy :/

Anyway i want to go out but the problem is

ITS RAINING,ok not much of a problem

but most of my friends are scared of height and ghosts.

So who dare to go roller coaster,ghost house and those daredevil stuff with me?

See noone :(

See you when i see youuu.

XOXO

Mean.

HOLIDAYYY.

2009-12-04T17:35:00.012+08:00

I know somehow im late to say this but holiday is hereeeeeee.
Haha for some schools, there's still exams etc.

After 1 december (after MY exams), ive been sleeping like a log.

In short,past few days ive DONE NOTHING.

NOTHING! NOT A SINGLE THING except those daily chores!

WAKE UP WAKE UP.

All these pictures were taken on Hari Raya Haji. Fun day!

I cant believe i wore my mum's piece.
&& its shockingly few hundreds for a piece.

I was left dumbfounded after knowing that because,y'know last minute pick of clothes.

I need ALOT OF plans to go out but im as usual love staying and hibernate at home.

I think im a bear,sleep when its cold esp. in the morning

but today is different just because half of the day im verryyy careful.

Careful of what? INSECTS >:(!

Theres this small bug (i think) with weird legs and shell and its black.

Its size is like an ant and if you put it under a microscope, it looks DISGUSTING.

WHY DO THEY EXIST !??

CANT SLEEP.

I imagine things that it came to eat me etc.

Cant sleep so woke up super early and guess what i saw?

Another insect on the floor and ive no idea what it is into my brother's room.

Dont worry this time its bigger. OK WHAT,NO ITS NOT OKAY!

DAMNIT. DAMNIT. HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO BE SAFE !?

Gotten alot of stuff and no i didnt go shopping. My mum did without my concern.
But she bought alot of things plus unnecessary ones,i dont know why
but im blessed with such a thoughtful mother.
Ive gotten a very expensive jacket (floral,asking me to be a lady SARCASTIC UH) ,pink bear (my mum being sarcastic i think because she knows i dont like pink!) ,cushion,vest,dress,dress,shoes,another pair of shoes,jacket,hoodie and its NEVER ENDING. I know >> 0_0?

Looking back at all the old pictures make me laugh. Im such a ___.
Speaking of different,im revamping my blog (yay?) so unactive links will be deleted,
dont call me a snoopy just because i know new links etc. When i mean by revamp means
all the new data must be NEW too. Thank you but somehow if you dont bother,im not going to bother uh,because sometimes people tend to look at you as someone whose busybody so whatever then from now.

Faree and I are planning to go to 'this' concert. SO EXCITED! Wont reveal to which one though lalalalalala. Hope it will STILL be available next week,woo. AND SEZAIRI IN YAYNESS. EVERYBODY DONT LOSE HOPE,VOTE VOTE FOR HIM. Im not a hardcore fan but i just want him to win. I have my reasons,pft.

I dont want just some Adam Lambert turn out. I know everyone is 'so shock' he kissed a boy, i dont. Im just disgusted the move to his crouch thing. TURN OFF. But i like his guts. Britney and Madonna are disgusting whores why no 'BIG FUSS' over that?

SOME people. Waste of space.

Maybe just maybe girls are stupid,the reasons why they have body image is because of them letting everybody see and of course people will criticise you and guys are evil devils. Im not siding Adam Lambert though but everyone is being an asshole, thank you.

Not MJ,he dont deserve but i dont get it. He has been nominated and Taylor Swift (the plain boring girl, which have alot of ratings after Kanye made her super famous?).

All too sudden and no Michael is dead,no nomination of DEAD PEOPLE PLEASE. WHAT IS THIS!? Originals and true music(s) are dead. DEAD. Sigh. Sorry to offend anyone.

Ok enough.

K bye. Cant wait for next week?

Meaningful,i promise.

2009-11-22T15:15:00.016+08:00

Heard of more deaths in this world?

Dont lie,its rising. Recently more cases of committing suicide.

Am i right?

The recent one is about the Korean supermodel.

Sureeee some people might say

"oh shes so stupid,a rising supermodel but ... etc"

I know how she feels though.

When youre alone and famous,

do you know how that is?

When youre in school and youre odd,

you should know how that is.

When youre in school and everyone let you down,

you dont know how it feels.

When youre alone and lonely and everyone is picking on you,

you dont know how that is.

Unfortunately,i know how it feels.

Only thing is that ive a strong courage,

the main thing: i dont commit suicide

but ive the urge few months especially years ago.

Its hard,very hard.

You expect people to forget what those creatures did to you,

regardless of how big or small the matter is.

NOONE can forget. Its not easy to forgive,forget and move on.

Its not.

I just wish people are more understanding of the surroundings

and the pressure they put people in.

It tortures me when people kill themselves.

It is very sad.

I feel like i want to help them.

The funny thing is sometimes i dont know how i can help myself

means ive days ive thought of committing suicide myself.

Oh well. Life is fair,people always made it unfair.

Their jealousy.greed.lust.pride.money etc.

Damn it. STOP IT PEOPLE.

This reminds me of Michael Jackson all over.

I still hate the new fans though.

I hate when they say 'oh how i wish i love him when hes alive'

Feels like giving you my, you know.

I know i know,everytime you read,its about MJ.

"Everytime i read her blog,its about MJ"

Hahahah. Sorry.

If you love someone SO MUCH,you know what i mean.

____

SINGAPOREANS LISTEN UP:

VOTE FOR SEZAIRI.

MAKE HIM SINGAPORE IDOL.

REMEMBER,DONT FORGET.

Omg,first time ever that i truly want someone to win.

The reason is because hes unique,talented and humble.

Vote Sezairi for me too.

I mean remember after that someone be an idol,will he/she remember the fans?

____

One more week and two last days with exams

AND IM FREEEEEEEE.

CANT WAIT.

I cant wait for this sickness to fully recover though.

I miss my teacher! 2009 teachers are so NICE.

All have their ways of 'nice'.

Ms W left this message:

"Hi, you are the best student of ____.

So glad to have you in my class. You will definitely do well in life with your positive attitude.

All the best for your exams too. Keep in touch."

Im so. touched?

Alot said the good things though. Sigh.

I still dont really like the studies though haha!

I want to quit school :

I know "so stupid."

Heh. I love 09' classmates! (:

___

HONESTLY.

I dont like when people uses a victim etc to get to the top.

You get what i mean? Yes i know this is life etc.

You can obviously do well even if youre nice and give credits accordingly.

I hate when people use "black magic,spells" too.

I mean how long can it lasts?

I KNOW WHAT YOU THINK!

"Omg are you serious,people still use that?"

Yes im serious,i can know,YOU KNOW?!

Somehow i wont be drawn to that "someone" if that someone use "magic".

Its so fake? Its worst than plastic surgery.

You want someone to love you but you yourself know that youre a fake,

you dont love yourself,how can someone love you?

Even if you use "magic",tell me how long can that last

and how can you be happy for the rest of your life knowing that

they dont like you for you for the rest of your life?

Put it this way,you FORCE people to like you by using "spells".

Shhhesssh some people.
I want get away from here,i see people still practice this stuff.

I dont like it,neither do GOD.

Please dont lie to yourself,PEOPLE.

____

Another thing i find it funny is that this "girl" copies me.

Sure not a big deal right?

BUT

she is truly mad if someone else be a carbon copy of hers.

Not to mention,ew? From few years back til now.

Same hair colour,almost same hair,

same pose,same this,same that,almost follow what i study too!

Now shes following what my principles etc are and

go around telling people its not her,its me who "loves" her.

i know,i show her this face -_-''.

Damn "YOU". Its so freaking irritating uh.

I wonder if she will follow what i do for the 'new' me?

Again see who will think that "girl" is HER. Hm.

Haha okay move that aside.

___

Damn irritated with "2012" storyline and people who are so into it.

Noone is God,so noone knows when the world will end,so shut up.

Oh ive seen the ship is saved,people are alive etc.

WHAT THE. PEOPLE ALIVE?!

ARE YOU SERIOUS,THE END OF THE WORLD,PEOPLE ALIVE?!?

Okay whatever,im not interested to know.

"Jennifer's Body"? Oh please dont bother watching.

Megan Fox looks like a devil,i dont know whats so hot about prostitute?
Although i dont know her personally she seems nice but there are other things to
talk about and help around.

Hmmm "Victoria Secret"? You mean high class protitutes?

Oooops sorrrrrrrry, not interested in seeing maybe 'articial bodies'

and walking around with expensive lingeries

where kids in war needs those money to eat.

They get all the money,not caring about whose their fans worst still?

Better be a rockstar,a singer,even a dancer than this model crap.

Even Michael J. cares about his fans seriously.

If thats your favourites,go watch,pffft. I wont stop you.

If youre VERY smart,you know who those eyes belong to?

I dont like the guy but he is awfully cute.

(:.

Ok enough of complains. I complain again next post ahhaaaaa.

CANT WAIT FOR EXAMS TO END :D.

Enjoy your days,dont be bothered by "perfect" robots.

EAT WHAT YOU LIKE GIRLS. EATTT CHOCOLATES.

EAT HAHAHA ;D.

Different and i dont care.

2009-11-01T01:39:00.008+08:00

Its been long right? Haha.

Ive been observing and learning peoples' true colours.

Not to mention what makes this world a WORLD.

so excuse me from the long break.

The main thing you should know is that i cant wait for December to arrive.

It will come if you know what i mean.

This time when i say everything new,expect EVERYTHING new.

You know firstly nothing gets funnier than people judging you

by your poses or pictures,funniest joke ever

and threatening you by wanting to post it in public hahahahahahhaa.

What the hell is that,please? AHAHAA.

_________

To continue my life always had its ups and down.

Nothing much but recently this year filled with more caring humans

eventhough they arent honestly caring but they are more sympathetic.

Theres these few days i wanted to do things all alone,everything A-Z alone

but sometimes people dont let me,

im not sure why but one of these days

im going to break hours alone.

God knows where i will go.

Somewhere you can scream in silence.

November here now,how fast and i love it ahaha.

So safely i can say that last month i had the real laughters.

Recently,i think i look ugly hahahaa.

The reason why i put my title as 'Different and i dont care' means

theres time when i grow up

and the same repeating words that people keep

saying be it nice things or bad things always has been

because shes 'different'

Now where i reach my point where i dont care anymore what anyone have to say

especially 'different',i dont live to please anyone.

Thank you.

Ive been through alot so dont blame me for

not being 'emotional' towards everyone's needs.

Everyone is too caught up with the stupidest whiny problems

but not the all-round bigger problems.

Who actually stops by and think

'hey why do i actually believe this and that?'

'Why dont i take an initiative to talk to someone before i sum everything up?'

or who in a thousands actually thinks

'hey that person do really has nice hair etc etc'

instead of just judging someone sometimes that you dont even know?

I wonder but the answer is sometimes humans are disgusting.

Not to mention,theres this Michael Jackson premiere for 'THIS IS IT'

Whatever crap,who actually cares for him when hes alive?

People who I DONT EVEN KNOW who cares for his legacy are at his premiere.

These celebrities wants fame,you get the picture,not all but think about it.

Michael Jackson has not even see this crap or approve to be seen by many.

He is a perfectionist,he isnt ready for the concert yet

and out of the sudden,'bam!'

Saying its for his legacy,bullshit. Im not watching,waste my money.

Even when this movie or crap is rolling,mouth will still be commenting.

Stupid.

I know i shouldnt bring this up but this is a perfect example.

I try every way to forget him for a long time and listening to other bands.

In other way,i will achieve to forget everything about him.

Other thing is,i hate boys. Girls too ok humans haha.

Whenever girls cry over a boy,i will laugh not comfort her though,sorry

especially those not even 18.

I dont know,i find these species weak.

Boys do it because theyre "curious"

and girls did it because theyre "in love"

In short,both are freaks. End.

For me i dont need a man,i be my own man and woman,

Ok simple. I know theres some boy who is cute blablabla.

Living alone,more time,more everything.

I always been very mean with boys especially those not in school.

I never let ANYONE close to me AT ALL.

You dont have to agree with me,

whatever goes.

Also,i think every kid shouldnt study so hard.

Eat whatever you want,

Do whatever you want,

Say whatever you want.

I want to do what i want!

If youre a genius,you know whose this hahahaha.

Who the hell is that?

Update soon.

Runaway,can i?

2009-10-11T17:41:00.012+08:00

The overloaded blog post "boomsxxs'' with pictures.

One open house, the other just random pictures with animal instinct?

Have you ever thought of running away from social life?

Ive been thinking about this eversince i almost died (well feels like it) few days ago.

I accidentally cut my ______

and once i felt so happy,thinking all my sorrows are going to end.

The world went blank and black,

my head was spinning and i couldnt breath but i dont

know what happen that it was so painful,i prayed and im back down here.

Maybe i shouldnt have prayed so i will be dead by now.

Whenever you want to put your message through,you cant just like Michael J.

Been so many disruption from irresponsible people.

My mini open house was great but after all those smiles were just another act.

The reason ive been staying in the house is simple - im sick of the world.

I can do whatever i want without any interaction and do nothing.

There have been a point when i went out recently and suddenly are so afraid

of humans and any connections between them. I felt like not talking.

I see there's no point of living now.

If there's one job i want is to be is to be a rockstar but not another rockstar.

What i meant was a rockstar.

One thing for sure i like to surprise everyone.

Then i can do my job not only from the mind but from my heart.

I can scream however i want to just to fill the anger thats been burning in for so long.

I could write songs that people can relate to.

Ive been keeping my feelings so tight,noone even knows what is running through my mind.

While other girls are so busy searching for relationships,i love being alone.

God knows for how long and how capable i am to handle all by myself.

Noone can make me happy,not even a single guy.

I love girls with reputation and pride.

Not to mention im not just any other girl walking pass you.

It has been ages since ive met this girl.

Just want to say do take care of yourself and good luck in whatever you do.

We will meet again one day!

Nothing much i could write. Others are personal.

There were once my day was so empty,i just felt like packing up my bag and runaway

as far as i could go,jump down so deep in the ocean so noone could find me.

This isnt some piece of crap written by some artist,this is how i felt.

There are so many things i want to say but i cant.

I felt my life is so empty i dont find anything interesting anymore.

Kids nowadays are getting from bad to worse to worst.

Everything they felt are ''normal'',well honeyboos,it isnt.

Some kids study so hard but couldnt get what they want like me.

Im thinking of nothing but killing myself.

Some people do deserve a hell load of recognition

but they dont,i know how they felt.

Sorry, im not acting 'sexy' just like the lipstick colour hehe.
Right now my left eye= swollen. Wonder how im going to go to school.

Stupid school?

Im not going to switch on my computer if i could,

no tuning to radio in ages now,sick of hearing hypocrites' voices,one time laughing about MJ,out of the sudden saying they miss them.

No walking to cinemas right now been almost one year since i watch any movie.

Not watching MJ TRIBUTE or whatever crap.

No tv this is a promise until all MJ Tributes are gone.

I cant bear to watch especially when the ones who deliver the performance are by

weaklings and dumplings.

I cant stand it.

If you want a tribute please invite a powerful singers with passion and the ones

who really remembers MJ for MJ.

I rather watch all MJ impersonators,at least they have passion about MJ

and not just about performing and getting salary.

Now back to putting an act.

Got to pretend to smile

and pretend im happy.

But in the end,still the same desire to run away.

Since noone has the heart.

Ive been so cold eversince,dont blame me.

Goodbye.

Kitty Kat.

2009-09-29T02:12:00.010+08:00

Boomz. (Singaporeans inside joke)

(Sorry for the picture,was tired and sweaty haha. My mum hates that picture haha!)

The fact why i love holidays?

Simply because i have nothing better to do.

I laze around and i dont care if i will never step out of the house for one whole year.

I really dont. I dont know if there's anyone like me?

I dont even need to rely on computers,i can watch MJ movies over and over.

Just laze around,you know?

But decorating,reading,tv,helping parents,eat,movie marathons etc. and the next day,the same routine,I LOVE IT. I know im weird but i seriously do love this lifestyle.

Just that if i want this then whats my job? Ug hate it. I want to do something so different but earning lots of money. Just how? Will see.

Done with my latest project given by Ms Liow.

As fast as three days and completed. Thats why i love doing things alone. Now the thing is whether my team are as fast as me? I hope they are AT LEAST responsible.

This special month is interesting and while most kids out there are out for money,

i spend the time just to visit my loved ones,i love my maternal side,theyre funny!

I really dont care about the money,

i really cant understand why people are so engross with money?

Is that why some of you are happy about?

If that is the reason then its disgusting.

I know its important and powerful but in the end its not everything.

(Kitty kitty meow meow!)

Since i love cats,this is what i came up with.

(My mum likes this haha!)

I kept on reading about MJ and i cant stop. Im going to buy another book pronto!

I was observing and then i came up with 'whatsup with madonna all nice?'

I always thought of her nothing than an easy woman,sorry to the fans.

Seriously shes disgusting,two face and bitchy,trying too hard altogether.

Ewwwww.

I was ''paralysed'' when she said she has always admired MJ.

(after his death that is,usually she said he's a creep blabla)

I just wanted to say that this is the kind of 'out-of-the-sudden-MJ-fan'

or maybe the ones who secretly been jealous of him.

Its obvious to me.

Just when i thought im the only one who agree.

I read.

on.

"Michael Jackson thought Madonna was 'sincerely in love' with him.
The late pop star - who died in June from acute Propofol intoxication - claimed he turned down the singer's advances because he didn't find her 'sexy'."

HAHAHAHAHAHAH!

In a 2001 interview with his friend Rabbi Shmuley Boteach,

Michael said: 'I think she was sincerely in love with me and I was not in love with her.

I think she likes shock value and she knows how to push buttons on people.
'She did a lot of crazy things.

knew we had nothing in common.

She is not sexy at all.

I think being sexy comes from the heart in the way you present yourself.'

STRIKE ONE!

As well as being convinced Madonna was attracted to him, Michael also thought the 'Vogue' star was jealous of his career.
He explained: 'They admire you and know you are wonderful and great because they are jealous, because they wish they were in your shoes. Madonna is one of them. She is jealous. She is a girl, a woman and I think that's what bothers her. I think women don't scream for other women. Men are too cool to scream for women.

I get the fainting and adulation and she doesn't.'

MJ SOUNDS EGOISTIC BUT ITS WORTHWHILE HAHAHA!
Not sure if its true but hell im going to think it is HAHA.
Im so going to buy this new book,cant wait! Not sure if i can trust the author?
Why out of the sudden right? Its suppose to be private,hmm. Maybe not?

(Not sure if im going to have sweet dreams or a nightmare after seeing this picture?)

HAHA!

Anyways im not sure if Mj is a muslim? Or if he is dead? Ugggggggg.

If im famous,i would love to play dead hahahaa.

Another thing that make me happy is talking to Bee.

I mean Feat. We talked about morons (inside joke)

Heh. Cant wait to meet you in Dec.

Another thing is how stupid ok wait how idiotic haha

most people can spend their money on F1 stupid race.

Sorry fans.

The singers werent even interesting.

How sad,they are enjoying

while most arent helping the unfortunates,

not even a $2 donation

but can spend $100/- and over for such an event.

Humanssss.

Dont worry ive alot of tickets and pass for F1,got it for free.

I threw all of it away because i was angry

and dont regret one bit (;

And another man that makes me happy.

This guy.

Reason?

Funny.

Hot.

Fierce.

Tall.

The way he smiles.

and he looks and reminds me of my..

dad.

Thats why haha.

Although he supports for John Mccain (that (!^#@&),

i like his personality in the series.

Gentleman but crazy haha.

This is my movie/series marathon for this week.

Next week another man HAHAHAHA!

But the story abit laggy *yawn*

Update soon.

My open house = coming.

Clean my room : partly done.

I know how slow of me hahaaa!

Those that ive invited do tell me if you can by tomorrow latest

if not,

well im sorry but i wouldnt be too happy about it.

Those who wants to come,do message me.

Bye!

"HIGGGGGINSSSS"

BAHAHAH!

If you know what i mean.

Listen to me, man.

2009-09-19T16:38:00.013+08:00

ONE MORE DAY. If you know what i mean?

but not as excited if you'd like to know?

Ive been away for 18 days means away from computer as well,

feeling abit weird. HAHA!

Ive been ordering pizza on the weekly basis,need to stop!
SAVE MONEY YASMIN SAVE.
And you guess it right! Bought another MJ book three weeks ago but little time to read all of it. Now i can,just had my holidays yesterday and will be having it few weeks from now. Bzzzz.

Projectssss. I thank god for doing well in all my tests and CAs and top the class = one! :D. Hope i get what i wanted for the final result! Team have been doing their works and for some that do as little,marks will be deducted low beyond below. Now i will become a mean leader. (:.

Lately i still cant get over fake fans or out-of-the-sudden proclaimed fans of MJ and other celebrities. Its as though they are not being themselves. From getting angered and saddened by it before,now i laugh it off because its just VERY FUNNY :D.

Here's what i think,the die hardcore fans should agree with me:

FAKE FANS:

do not admit that they are fans until after his death of course unless you are born young to understand whats happening or parents are against pop musics etc,other than that youre just FAKE.
Real fans are fans no matter what he did or do.
Start buying and listening to his music after his death and said they "love" him. Whats the point of loving someone once they are gone?
After his death,everything is about him like where were they years ago? Annoying much.
They find reasons to jump on the bandwagon and fit in,searching informations ON THE INTERNET HAHAHAHAA.
Probably the ones who just knew he did wear 'military jackets' and now he's the king of icon as well and everyone wants one,eeew.
When you mix relationship advice with MJ,what!? HAHA.
Some fake fans said it in their profiles that theyre not hypocrite like i will believe that.
Few years they said he was a pedophile now theyre all loving him. Now what was that?
They have to live their lives knowing they are a ‘huuuge’ fan only after he’s dead.
You go to clubs hearing MJ songs and think it is a tribute,what tribute is that dancing around and getting wasted for MJ? That doesn’t make the world a better place.
That he's a Muslim (eventhough not a good one or is he even one?) and others paying tribute not knowing he is one so you know rude.

I know I should get over it but this is too sudden to forget.
I believe 2 years from now,everyone will forget about him,you will see especially fakers. I know he is not the most innocent and troubled man and he isn’t the best religious guy around but hey are you any better?

I get confuse that these humans are still kicking and living. If you cant take what I say,you are definitely one of the hypocrites alive. HAHAHAH! :D.

And there's this person who talks about backstabbing and betrayal when you dont know my side of story. Not pushing a blame on others? Well i dont,its a fact thats what im saying. At least im not as weak as you (;.

Again its funny alot of other people will think im talking
this girl/that guy/that girl. Carry on,i love this game.

I probably be doing these faces to you now :D.

I think its fun to be a huge superstar,you know why i want to be one? Because i want to play around with media's minds. If im one i will definitely play around people's minds especially the ones with free time to play detectives. HAHA.

I read one about Paul McCartney about his death that one of his lookalike replaced him after his car crash until now. I mean come on. And the one Elvis is still alive and MJ is still alive as well. Media will make money so will i. Not sure if its true but i dont give a care,i mean so what if they fake their deaths,the truth will surface one day. Honestly i think Paul McCartney is still Paul McCartney. MJ is dead so is Elvis despite what they did and people think its wax body etc. Oh wellllls.

I am NOT KIDDING when i read this yesterday night and i felt A VERY EERIE FEELING. The moment i read,the moment i wanted to sleep,the moment i want to do a thing,i can FEEEEEL someone is watching me and its so cold (not because of the rain) and the MJ picture i had in my room,i dont even dare to see it! When i sleep,i hear all kind of noise,i dont even want to talk about this!

So things that make me happy:

MY CLASSMATES '09
Peiting helps me on online shopping,now left with jewelleries to arrive !
Jean with buying chocolates and scanning stuff! YAY :D.
Some of my classmates supports me of becoming MJ ! and Peiting says 'who knows next time you will be like him?'

That im obsessed with this and the lovely girl!

That this is true!

and this lady.

Better looking than Halle Berry,Beyonce,Tyra Monster and Nicole Scerwuiqrdsfksdj.

Whatever her name is hahahaa!

but shes all religious now,eeek

Everyone celebrating tomorrow,be happy! (:
See you guys soon here.

Back to back.

2009-09-01T20:26:00.010+08:00

How long did i actually ignore this?
Pretty long isnt it? Thats because ive been making alot of reflections
and thinking whether i should continue living in this cruel world? Hm.

It has been so long and honestly blogger isnt doing much justice so im going to blog in a very complicated way right now haha. Week by week,its getting colder,so am i,inside out.

Im annoyed when people still looks at you as though you will stay the same.

Honestly,everyone change,yes everyone. I may not have change from the way how soft-spoken i usually am,how people will remember the way i look like (sorry but i change alot,so does my face,totally changing now) and everyone still say how i pretty much remain as humble as i am now but i cant understand how people will continue saying all the bad things that happened years ago or even the untrue things or assume that things are true? Hm.

Oh of course,humans.

Sure ive nothing to worry because ive done nothing blown-off
cruel things but hey im still human, i sure as hell make mistakes.
So please dont judge me by ''me'' years ago. Not even one knows me well,not even the "bestfriends" years ago. Im good with being secretive y'know? (:.

So when another human walks on by or anyone
that thinks they know me very well. C'mon,you dont.
You dont even know me like my parents do.

Just a random thought haha.

I love skinny ladies now especially naturally skinny because girls nowadays (some maybe most?) pisses me off by telling me how fat they are when they surely as hell know they arent. Being skinny doesnt mean trying to be,some are born with it.

And when theres another skinny innocent girl beside them,they go around telling their friends how skinny or assume they dont eat as much and oh making fun. When they got home,they say it in their hearts how they wanted to be skinny. Secretly whispering to themselves they need to lose weight and be as skinny as the one they just criticise.

Freaking lame dont you think? So next time,especially the ones that are heavy or the ones who have such ENORMOUS THIGHS,im going to make fun just the same saying the whole building is going to collapse. HAHA. So now the world thinks skinny people has no feelings while fat people do? Pft,give me a break.

but of course,im not as bad,
but dont think im that nice either (;.

Again just another funny thought till today because i just witness it myself every time a skinny girl stands beside fat cows. Hm.
Its all in the minds.

P.S. I have no agenda whatsoever with heavy people,just setting an example. Bottomline, i love people who are healthy,thats the right size. Theres no such thing as a 'certain' size for human.

My brother loves making me laugh though saying

"girls nowadays thinks that theyre the best good looking people".

HAHA! I agree but not all,i myself dont behave in such a way and he knows that. I say i rather be having some time dolling myself up and another saving the world and unfortunate people instead like some wasting their life away getting wasted in clubs and vomiting all over,then boys make use of them like a garbage bag. Not to mention the amount of whines they have for their carelessness.

Of course this is one of the examples,there are alot,im just too tired of cheap girls and jerks (guys) until someone proves me wrong. Im starting to dislike alot of girls though,hmmm,well humans.

I can write a whole composition on the examples of girls that i dont like.
Like the ones i saw smoking the hell out in school,IN SCHOOL PEOPLE?! Ew.
I hope they choke and i witness their deaths (:

Sorry if that is counted as "EVIL".

Now projects and being the leader with such members creates a whole much level than anyone can take. I hope everyone did the given tasks.

Bye. Updating more when im free. Stay put haha.

Edit//

Funny how some people still read my blog and feel like im talking about them.
Funny how they think theyre my "bestfriends" years ago too? Hmmm.
And yes noone knows me best,hmm wonder why someone felt so guilty? HAHA.

(:

What do you think people?

2009-08-14T21:02:00.013+08:00

Greetingsssssssssssssss. Whats up with blogger although i can post easier this time still. OK. Im going to continue with the sequence.

This week has been veryyyyy stressful+happy yet fun. I will tell you why.

Things that make me quite irritated yet amusing:

I laughed,ok giggled! I saw some bloggers who are 'touched' and felt i was talking about them. When im talking about people in general. Cant believe they do read my blog? Getting all the people who are irritated by me shows me im something. Something as in they need to get bothered by my words. PFFFT. ;D.
When i did my project like crazy and the due date is extended,GAH.
That people try too hard to be what they are. I dont know what i do but people always call me bad things. I dont care but one thing i dont need to tell people what i am. You know some people try too hard to show that they are 'Arrogant by not smiling etc' or saying they are good with debating etc and try too HARD to prove it and actually agree to what they say.
That people disagree that theyre hypocrites. HAHA everyone is and of course these people are the ones who are REALLY a hypocrite (:
That girls try too hard to be sexy and baring their chest,eee.
That people think clubbing is a trend HAHAHAHA.
That someone said 'its good that i sympatise for MJ' but why people start to pity him only after he's dead? Oh i can bitch whatever i want especially to people who criticise him when he's alive. HAHAH.
That i have alot to do but im here sleeping all day and watching videos.
When people laugh about my life or opinions when really their life are the ones that need to be guarded. Tsktsk.

Things this week that ive accomplished:

Being a good teamplayer. :D.
First group to hand in a project. I can actually handle it alone though.
Being good friends and surrounded by people who are alike.
Laugh at people who laughed at me!
Bought MICHAEL JACKSON's books eventhough ive more important things to buy! Almost $40 for a book,damn but its worth it,thanks to $25 voucher ive gotten for winning a video contest and lucky day DISCOUNT! HAHA.(;.

Things that make me happy!:

That everyone calls me 'O_ _ _',feels like im having a boyf. :D. Aisyah-ALEX OR WHAT haha.
Syazwani G. printed things for me eventhough it costs a bomb! Syazwani A. helping to bind our groups' papers!
That people love my new handphone and i do too! I dont like blackberry because everyone is having one and its not that great. Heh.
That i said 'i like to confuse people' HAHA!
Jean bought me bracelets (:
See the drawing? Syazwani A. helped me do that. She traced it from computer and makes me happy! I wont tell you whose that guy is,BOO. I perfected it abit. Credits to Syazwani A (:.

Things Michael J. and I have in common. Those who read do not be shocked.

That when we look in the mirror,we are saying the same thing. We are very ugly creatures simply because growing up people always calls me negative things.
That i think sleeping in bed isnt a cruel thing although it isnt the best thing to do with kids if youre famous. People are the ones dirty-minded,bed=you know which is not.
We have been misunderstood alot of time and noone seems to care even when the truth are revealed.
We dont have a fun childhood. Sorry cant reveal but its painful as i went from 5 years to last year,not a good life.
'Lonely',describe so much about us.
That we are shy with people but not on stage. Im not shy when i know what im doing though hahahaa.

Scary encounters:

While praying yesterday,someone called me again and again.
I saw people watching me.
Just had a bad dream,a white ghost chasing me around 7pm etc.

Apart from others when i said i like you since 5/6 years old,its really true. Y'know some idiots who 'out-of-the-sudden' huge fan or claim to like him since 5 when they absolutely have no idea who is Michael J. in the poster.

Have a great weekend everyone?Stay tune for more.

Need to write other things rather than MJ!

Are you bored?

2009-08-09T14:24:00.004+08:00

I got something to write haha.
Recently im tooooo lazy and busy.
I hate this!

This week is hectic maaaan!
I want to blog but yet again blog is being a nuisance again!

Things that make me irritated this week:

(1) The fact that 'military jackets' are everyone favourites. Ya right after Michael Jackson's dead then everyone start calling him the mastermind or king of fashion. What about few years ago?
(2) The fact that out of the sudden girls who hated fishnets are wearing one,stupid idiots and of course stupid blog owners haha.
(3) Everyone is finding inspiration from everyone (ok doesnt sound wrong right?) BUT claim they dont know who the person they copied. WHAT THE..
(4) Facial isnt what i thought it will be haha, painkiller. I thought it will make someone feel better but feel tons worst. I will cover my face yet again!
(5) That phototaking are everywhere when i feel so insecure right now.
(6) Projects and tests are too much! and every group members are not serious like me.
(7) School.
(8) When you help someone and they say they do appreciate but not really,and worst still didnt give you credits for helping them.
(9)Well i saw this and i still want to believe its true (even if it may not be):

''MJ's family was about to give him a Muslim burial with the help of The Brotherhood of Islam. But, the CIA showed up at Neverland's door - blackmailed them that if they do so publicly, Katherine (MJ's mother) would be pull off from MJ's 3 children's custody as well as MJ's estates. Instead, they'll hire Debbie Rowe for the purpose, and the court will be in their favour. So much for democracy and fairness..

Finally, they agreed to let MJ have a Muslim Burial in Neverland. But in condition, must show to the public a Christian Memorial Service, as to prove to the world that MJ was nev er a Muslim.

So, Staples Centre was just a normal show. That's why the coffin was closed and sealed.

MJ was buried days earlier. The Gold Coffin was empty. They were about to bury the Coffin according to Christianity ways in Hollywood - as in their deal with the USA Government.

These happened, because the USA is afraid of the rising numbers of Muslims in the world.

(Sheikh Ha**d)
The Brotherhood of Islam
Buletin of Bahrain''

(10) That computer/blogger/google etc is being nothing but crap.
(11) That noone is as real as i thought they would be anymore.
(12) That everyone makes a fuss about Obama saying 'stupid media',well if media is soooooooooooo ridiculously smart,they wont make stories up,not everyone should be super formal. Obama start calling media stupid,who cares,they are the ones who turn superstars with potential dead,make them dead.
(13) That everyone makes fun of cleaners or poor foreigners when without them,do you think alot of Singaporeans want to be a cleaner? Or that some poor foreigners whom people call perverts when they themselves are disgustingly PERVEERTS?!
(14) That some people preach like 'WHAT THE HELLLLLL' and ended up doing what they never said they will do.

Things that make me have mixed feelings:

(1) That everyone calls me MJ's 'blanket'? Do i really look like that?
(2) That i met and saw a gay which is quite good looking? My mum's friend btw?
(3) That i wander all alone for hours and wasting my handphone bill calling others?
(4) That some of my friends are irritated by my call yesterday. If you are just say so,good job Yasmin for testing some people on who they really are? Hmmm. I still want to thank those sincere ones who talk to me though especially Aisyah and Syazwani (s).
(5) That walking about alone seems 'SUSPICIOUS' and homeless to some people? Well Singaporeans.
(6) That im a Singaporean? Am i really in the place full of justice? Hmm.

Things that makes me happy:

(1) That ive quite good friends,it takes me months to figure that out. Weird right?
(2) That i bought a book about Michael Jackson,AT LAST!
(3) That ive eaten Secret Recipe and wasted my money. HAHA.
(4) That our class won the kite competition in 2nd place for Most Patriotic,congrats and well done to those who lend a helping hand!
(5) That i had a new handphone,time to take care until hopefully 2 years,i dont like changing phone.
(6) That ive found a singer from the 80s and shes pretty to me. Weird that shes all religious right now?

I cant think of anything else because im slightly mad. So thats all for now,blogger wont let me blog that much anywaysssss. Im so busy,what a life.

Sometimes i dont get human and their existance.

2009-07-30T19:09:00.009+08:00

It dont take a 10 year old to figure out that im sick or even depressed. Im somehow shocked even a teacher or a doctor could see right through me that ive been thinking about alot of things. In all,their readings are true. I will explain more later. Ive alot to talk but since blogger is being a nuisance awhile ago,ive to rethink of what i need to blog. Taking 2 days mc isnt enough.

Recently,there's this anti group about typical girls of a race and their eyebrows. Although theres so much i can tell you how much i dislike some typical girls with the worst attitudes ive ever seen,i will never be the one who join a group like that,simply because afterall everyone is human. Human makes mistake and i cant understand how someone could stoop so low to criticise her own kind when shes no better? I forget who she is but she claims shes into politics? I wonder what type? My my.

First thing straight,i dont judge people by how they wear,how their eyebrows are or how etc. In this world,its very unexpecting,a person can be as innocent as you think they are but behind doors,you will never know what they are really made of. A person may appear typical but may be very smart. Ive friends that look like that, maybe vulgar,not that presentable but isnt bad afterall.

This is what i call human. The funny thing is there are fans who support! *slap forehead*. Another funny thing is half of them are critisicing as though they are critisicing to themselves because they fit the description of this anti group perfectly. Mind you,every anti group should have their limitations.

Why dont everyone now makes an anti-group about tatts/homos/drinking/piercing this and that or or or bashing on stupid people instead? Its funny how people wants to get some attention in a wrong way. A wrong way where you cant even speak maturely and gain haters. Its very sad, some race who picks on people of their own kind. Shame,hear this before?

Another thing is saying that youre a Islam but youre not a Muslim. It doesnt make any sense to me? Its as good as though youre yourself but youre someone else. Dont quite get it do you?

Quit it then,go be another religion. If you wanted to say youre not as religious,do say it properly. Dont humiliate yourself. I cant stop giggling to adults about this though. Its funny yet degrading. How can people like that exist? Just as i thought this is bad,the people cant get any worst.

Somehow if you cant stand people ,do say it with facts where people can be influenced properly or say it to them? Being all too open minded is never good though. For me,if you want to write something,make it clear as crystal without flaming others esp. with pictures. I mean what if someone you flame are your friends/cousins or maybe yourself?

Just speaking up my mind. Afterall karma returns. I dont want to write on and on because again just speaking up whats on my mind. Speaking up where i think its quite rude although i think those typical girls are nowhere near anything brilliant to start of with. Oh well. Im here not to make you hate me or anything but i just wish everyone can understand each other or even how one lives when you step into their shoes.

After seeing different types of people, somehow i can never understand how human behaves? What are some of them for? Hurting people? Like me, i think being all nice is a crime. Why God doesnt take me then,im sick and very tired of all the bickering esp when its not true. I have enemies turn friends and actually following what i am now after all the horrendous things they say. I dont get it actually?

I heard Yasmin Ahmad(Malaysian Director?) dead and people are saying shes a guy etc. I mean is it even the BEST time ever to tell the news. Even if its true,i just couldnt believe some human are so pathetic to tell that when someones dead. How would they feel if someone spread stories when your family died? Can you tell me?

Example Michael Jackson,i know hes a bit weird but if that anyone dig deeper to find his true soul,do you think he can be saved earlier on? YES but sadly noone does,not even himself.

News are saying things like Doctor Murray murdered him,well do they have proof? Why dont they search things deeper and see if the previous doctor or is it his nurse or his plastic surgeon? I cant believe news spread like wildfire even if someones dead. People do anything for money. Girls arent girls anymore. Theyre skanks. They think being model is all that,showing bodies and 'give positive body image'? Girls who show too much cleavage. STOP IT. Guys are monsters. Well most,seems like it. Now i think you can understand why i dont like people.

Very sad,dont you think? I shall blog other things soon.
So tell me can you understand human?
Even animals love its child,what are we? War 24/7?
I see.

If i dont have plans,I promise to try every way to kill myself.
I.just.cant.take.it.

Sorry for the long post.

Nowhere fast.

2009-07-25T15:30:00.009+08:00

Many complain that they cant upload pics right? Well i cant too but blogger cant stop people like me,i always had another way round haha and im still using blogger's upload, heh heh heh (:.

Ive alot to upload but lets take it slowwwww. Ive nothing to do so on wed i took self-potrait 'just-came-home-from-school' session with purposely messy puffy hair haha. Noone does it better than me (:. (Okay now it just sounds self-obsessed).

Need.to.get.super.clean.face.and.quit.school!

Just so you know,i absent myself from school because of migraine and ive no mc hehe. Im tired of school and everyone says im stressed up,oh now everyone realised. I think too much,i hate school now because the module thinks we are bunch of no-lifers who loves projects and group works. I like individual and tests that needs memorising,thats all. Quit school UGG but i cant,everyone said its not worth it AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Great now my handphone is crazy,been using it for 2/3 years, crazy huh? While everyone is buying new one because of peer pressure or things like 'spoilt' just for 2 months,see how good i am,MUMMY haha.

Cant wait for December,somehow my life has no meaning anymore. I dont know why am i living here just to study,work,marry and die? Actually i dont want to get married.

Its getting boring,nevermind,will commit suicide without making it obvious. You dont know how it feels. I know fortunate but not happy,always had problems with social life,its so moronic.

Now Michael J is gone,i got noone. Ok sounds haha,i mean seriously,nothing. Another thing noone knows is that i dont show my true colours to anyone yet and ive no bestfriend. In school,im different. In reality im not. So it will surprise me people saying they know me too well,they dont know.me.like.i.do. Im very complicated.

If you havent notice,im trying my best to forget MJ,i dont know how can i react if someone i love slip away? :/. So been listening to alot of oldies songs. Usually my phone is 80% MJ,now its 60% MJ,30% 80s songs and the remaining some current musics but honestly i prefer 80s. Its so hard forgetting MJ. Just the other day both Syazwani told me that every music store is playing MJ songs,i was yelling 'STUPID SHOPPERS'

.in my mind. of course.

Sigh.

Funny phrases:

Bro: STUPID YOU KNOW THIS _____ !!! THEN YOU KNOW ..
Phone rings. The ___ he's talking about.
Bro: Helloooo. (Professionally)

Me:I couldnt stop laughing.

Desperate housewives preview where they dance around etc.

Bro: EEE! DEVILS. SEE EVEN SKELETON IS IN THERE. THESE ARE TYPES OF DEVILS SATANIC WOMAN,THINK THEYRE SO PRETTY ETC.

Me:Laughhhhhhhs! I think my brother dont want desperate women. Tsk.

Both Syazwani(s): Ya,everywhere's MJ music. Confirm Yasmin will leave the building.

Me:YOU BETCHA I WILL DO THAT!

Oh man,i always type alot.

Haha,write more when im free.

XXX NO 'O's. HAHA.

MJ is worth more dead than alive.

2009-07-18T14:43:00.008+08:00

By the time im writing this,i browsed back and found out that recently i have been posting alot about MJ ahahhahahahahahhahaa. OMGGGGGGGG. Its been a huge blow for me as he is my idol and im not just saying this,i bet everyone i knew knows that i 'LOVE' MJ.

I will stop only if people stop being pathetic.

Firstly its Jackson not Wacko,not Jacko. People had been urging people to respect him but i dont think 70% of people on this earth understand that.
Secondly i came across a random ex-schoolmates' blog and out of the sudden poured sympathy for MJ and claimed to be a 'huge' fan of MJ,ew. Youre not. Read the old post, never liked MJ and only like him after his death,thats not a 'huge' fan and saying 'i kinda like MJ now' doesnt make you any better,loser.
I dont appreciate people who 'out-of-the-sudden' love him ONLY AFTER HIS DEATH and named a fan. Thats not huge fan. A fan always been there when he's alive. If youre born later,i can understand but if youre my age and keeps saying youre a true hardcore fan knowing him only after his death,i'll punch you.
There's a huge gap difference between always big fan, a fan that always like/love him, a fan who only likes his music and a huge fan who likes everything about him and my least favourite a fan who likes him only AFTER HIS DEATH.
I hate people who dislike him for the way he looks,what makes you any better from the inside?
I hate people who opt FOR PLASTIC SURGERY BUT PROMISE NOT TO GO ANY FURTHER THAN MJ. WHAT MAKES YOU ANY BETTER? Plastic surgery for beauty equals to not respecting yourself and i mean even the smallest surgery. When youre not happy with yourself,you tend to go even further. So theres nothing to be proud when you have fake beauty within you especially when you yourself deny doing it. BOO-YA.
Belive me honey,MJ is worth more dead because when people worth a million dollar,everyone try to get at you until you make a fool of yourself. When hes dead only then people will respect him AS A PERSON. ONLY THEN PEOPLE REALISE HE HAS FEELINGS.
Actually most humans never appreciate the smallest things in life especially they ones that claim they did. Say is a small talk,i need to see your actions.

There im done.

Anyway ive a gift,maybe? Knowing or i can feel if someones going to die,well maybe? But my mum can dream about them. Friday morning she dreamt MJ came to our house from our television to our living room means he came out of the TV. He was wearing a black suit,the face before his death and he was smiling for a bit. My mum heard a voice 'hey isnt that the guy who is a child molester?'. He kept on walking as though he dont care. My mum said he was searching for something or someone and she assumed searching for me as he came to my house. Then he stared at the TV,seeing all these things and my mum told me he wasnt happy upon what he saw.

My alarm went off and thats it.
Coincidentally,i had a bad dream on that day too. BRR.

Well as i said,if he rise up once again, sure as hell he will screw the earth.

Have a nice weekend,im sure i dont have one.

IM SICK OF THIS WORLD.

Thank you (:.

MJ is not gay. I hate Media!

2009-07-15T21:01:00.009+08:00

Before i continue you know what i hate about media right now? They do like to pick on people especially the innocent ones. I dont get it,get some other way to make money for goodness sake. People do have feelings and what are they? Someone behind the camera and speech whose afraid to point at their own mistakes? Reminds me of high school. I dont appreciate media who makes story to make money for their own,its just something i WOULDNT respect unless a good journalist that isnt bias etc.

Recently,i have seen news saying Mj is gay. First of all,he isnt and you can see that dont you? If ever he is gay,i really do appreciate not saying that and people should shut up,let the dead rest. They wouldnt let him rest in peace once he was alive,now that hes dead,NOW WHAT? If ever he is a gay,so what? It is such a rotten news and now the real deal from the person mouth isnt there,people create stories. So get that and dont just believe whatever you see or heard from the media. It can never be 100% authentic. Not a single person knew someone like anyone but their own soul.

Remember about the molestation case? I really think he didnt do it. I dont get it how someone can easily forget about their son's case just by receiving money? Is that how they settle case? I mean if you as a parent and your son gets rape,would you mind getting money for own selfish reason and ignore what has happened to your son? THAT DOESNT MAKE ANY SENSE PEOPLE.

Its sad people chose to believe whatever media says even about 9/11 etc. Some were NOT EVEN TRUE. SO NEXT TIME DO OPEN YOUR EYES AND OPEN YOUR MIND. Im sick of this people.

Its like a group of people tell that A is this and that,would you believe them or would you take their advices but let A explain and get to know A further before making real assumptions?

Its so school drama,I have been person A where everyone talks about me just because of certain stories or first impressions i made. Till now,i dont give a damn but remember not everyone will forget and smile. Some cant,YOU DONT KNOW WHAT THE PERSON BEEN THROUGH,YOU DONT KNOW WHAT THAT PERSON REALLY THINK ABOUT. I still cant easily erase the pain they create and find it disturbing. Do you want someone be dead just because of that?

And then after theyre dead, you start feeling guilty. STUPID PEOPLE. THEN YOU START MOURNING,WHY IS IT HAVE TO BE ONLY WHEN THEYRE DEAD? NOW YOU TELL ME.

________

Ok enough OK BY THE TIME,I DIDNT REALISE HOW CONTINUOUSLY LONG I WROTE HAHAHAAA.

This phrases make me laugh:

1.1

Brother:

'Im a fan of prison break but i dont know how to break a prison anywayyy'

*sarcastic*

1.2

Me:

'The neighbour turns nut so she came out of the door with her broom breaking things singing beat it'

By the time Dad swings his hip,THAT IS TOO FUNNY.

1.3

Aminah:

'You are not alone... then what eh?'

'You must be dead then people will remember you'

Me:

'Im dead,noone remembers me,im not MJ'

1.4

Me:

'MJ DEAD MY HUSBAND DEAD!'

Kamil:

'.... Send my condolences..'

Update soon. Sorry if i write too long. Prison break is starting (:

I think Mj Memorial is rude.

2009-07-11T14:15:00.008+08:00

Woah one week away from blogging haha.
Anyway about Michael Jackson,just when i thought my life couldnt get any worse,it did.

Now rant about MJ. Tsktsk.

He is a Muslim right? So why the first thing is singing related to Christians?
His body should be buried 24/48 hours and organs must be intact,DUH.
How can he rest in peace when people should be focusing on his legacy not making up more stories,not making any sense.
How do you expect him to rest in peace when his brain is still in autopsy?
The scientist or whatever crap is damn slow for the research.
Inside the casket,isnt it obvious his body is not there?
If he is alive again,its obvious he will screw most people up.
Seeing 'out-of-the-sudden' fans that i remembered saying ''listening to his songs are so last century'',im sure he will be irritated.
Im a fan not pathetic,PFT. Im not like some ex-schoolmates,maybe anyone i knew who tease me about Michael Jackson behind my back to hurt me but in the end ended up liking him or 'self-proclaimed' liking him, need to get away from these morons.
I dont like when people hated you but in the end follow you,sounds familliar? HAHA.
Im not sure why they invite some crap singers to sing haha.
His body is temporary in Muslim cementary? Well it shouldnt be 'temporary' in the first place,feels like noone wants to take him or his religion seriously.
'Heal the world,make it a brighter dayyyyy'. Well are you sure the people are singing for him,for the world or really just for the fame?
Why dont people want to investigate thoroughly before making assumptions when he is alive. Oh right... money.
Funny when people suddenly miss him and dancing to his music like idiots. He is dead what do you want to prove? Celebrate his music,i rather like it if you people chill. HE WAS ALIVE,NOW HE IS DEAD,ITS TOO LATE. I dont think he appreciate you dancing when he had a hard time finding where his brain is?
Somehow these things that happened reminds me of the late Princess Diana. I dont know about you but after his death,people still wont leave him alone. DIE.

I have more to say but oh well,you can scram off and do your own things if you had enough with what i say. HEY HO. Continue with starving myself. Dying early? I dont know why some people gets mad when i say that? Im just so sick of the world waaaaay before this happens. Im too tired to plaster my smile and act as if nothing happens in my life everyday. In school,im never the same person so if you think you know me,think again. I dont want to make it obvious in school so i try to eat if i can and 'smile'.

''Smile eventhough your heart is aching''

Trying.

Girl with hairflicks.

2009-07-02T20:24:00.015+08:00

Denim jacket.
Black dress for size 'M' though,usually wear XS & everlasting shiny shoes.
&& new edition of 'i-dont-know-how-i-did' hairflicks.
Alot to tell but no mood to elaborate.
Blogger being an asshole by not uploading pictures like they usually do.So have to upload by linking and all the way round method.
These few days had not been eating well eversince MJ's death.
Before this outing with Faree,i actually cried overnight. That explains the droopy eyes on pictures.
Surprisingly,i can keep my own worries all to myself.

Day by day getting fatter around the neck area,seems like i have a double neck,ew.
Gossiped with Faree about "dumb bells" who suddenly showed affection about Michael Jackson on their blogs,get a real idol and stop fitting in.

Did you notice i stayed slim but chubbier,gaah!
I like when people over-react on my weight,seems like theyre 'fat'. Jealous? No honey,you cant hurt my feelings but i can hurt yours.
So far,noone understands me.

The weather is so hot but im wearing denim haha.
Im actually angry with the world.
Here are some phrases that made me laugh.

1.1

Faree: 'MJ's dead but choose another,whose that you like Shinjo? Shinju?'

Me: 'Its SHINJI KOBAYASHI and i still prefer dead Mj!'

HAHA loyal?

1.2

Faree:'You bought two items and i still have none to spend yet!'

1.3

Faree:'Maisarah will be jealous!'

Me:'Why?'

Faree:'Whenever im with her,i didnt splurge but with you i bought alot of things'

Sounds like im a 'go-spend'your-$$' friend haha.

1.4

Faree:'Yaaah,your post sounds angry,seems those people are guilty so they feel a need to write nonsense on their blogs saying they 'love' MJ.

Me:'THATS WHY! SO FAKE!'

Faree:When i read the phrase 'before you judge me,try hard to love me' I LAUGH MAN!

Me:'I know that youre the only one that will laugh.' Its a song called 'childhood' you should hear it.'

Faree: 'OH ITS A SONG?'

HAHAHA. Psst. Its an inside jokes only Faree & i can understand.

1.5

Faree:'No boyfriends?'

Me:'I dont know,no? Guys are jerks and i plan not to get married.

Faree:'WHAT WHYYY? Then turn lesbian?'

Me:'Never.....'

Faree: 0_0.

Why is everyone so shock? I hate the world.

Pictures for memories turn out to be something else,haha. CAMWHORE.
Faree thanks for your understanding on MJ's death and remembering me whenever MJ pops up haha,also for the companion to shop and the bubble tea.
My mum's birthday this saturday,cant wait to surprise her. Faree's mum after my mum's,shocking!
I want to quit school eventhough some say i did well for my midyear.
I suddenly dislike school and their regulations.
Be prepared to see a darker side of me from today onwards,thanks to morons everywhere.
Currently people have annoyed me.
I am very angry.
I dont like school.
I never want to work.
I hate people.
I hate the world.
I have never met a single soul that meet my expectations.
I can never share my feelings with anyone.
Sometimes,i t.hink i will get a mental problems because of what happened in my life

More pictures here:
Click here.
Take care,i see what else i can write.

I dont like pretentious people who love Michael Jackson.

2009-06-28T17:42:00.008+08:00

I still cant get over what happened to Michael Jackson. I am somehow mad and very depressed. Some songs makes me happy but the sad ones will forever make me cry. Its a very sad day,very sad week.

Just about to do my things this holiday but i havent got enough time. Im not sure if i can ever forget him,it seems like it will never be.

Very disgusted by some behaviours of some pretentious and hypocritical people who landed him with such mental health problems. After he left the world,people i never knew liked him say they do,some still insist of making fun of him while others felt sorry for him. Why now? Thats a question to all two-faced people. Why? I had friends who are like that,i have to be careful of them now. I dont trust people anymore.

Michael dont even hurt a fly but it looks like the whole world do EVERYTHING to hurt him.

Why is it someone has to die to get your attention,then you try to understand whats going on in his life? Why? Why when he is alive,i heard alot of bad things,never good ones? Suddenly the death of him makes him more popular. His family im not even sure are there for him,dont look like a family that much.

After all,ive learnt people are bullshit. The world is slowly showing the true colours. If i had a choice,i dont even want to live in this moronic world full of unreasonable people. I had been through real life accusations of me,criticisms,name calling but its nothing compared to Michael. I just wish he knew how big of an idol of him to me.

I have always like him despite whatever reasons he did. This shows how low people stoop. I feel like hating everyone,i dont want to live. Until theres a reason why i live,i will want to die. What i knew,im starting to feel very angry. Very. He is too innocent and too kind so i shall stop being like that,i shall start being so angry that everyone will get to keep far distance away. I shall keep everything to myself because people judge alot.

I especially hate people who says 'dont judge me' or 'i dont judge'. OH SHUT UP.

''Before you judge me,try hard to love me''
I dont think people get that point.

Now i shall get something to do so i can get over this.
I should get over this.

but i can feel i can never get over this. NEVER.

I want to meet him but can i now?
No.

Theres no celebrity i would die to meet unlike him,none.
R.I.P MJ.
May Allah bless you if youre a Muslim. You will always be in my prayers.
You have been through so much so maybe thats why HE loves you.
I hope youre in heaven right now. Maybe its better you leave so you wont hurt yourself anymore. Maybe theres too much going on,its better if you go far far far away. (':

Thanks to judgmental people all over the world.
I have lost part of my life.
Thank you very much.

Somehow i knew Michael Jackson died.

2009-06-26T07:47:00.015+08:00

Somehow i knew Michael/Mikaeel Jackson is indeed dead from yesterday.
Note that im crying my hearts out,its bleeding as im typing this up.

I never knew why i kept watching his video such as 'beat it','bad','thriller' and all types over and over. Something hit me hard in my heart,i couldnt know what it was but i feel a need to watch at least once but then it became an addiction so i watched it on impulse.

I couldnt stop thinking about him,this time its not fantasy,this time is sadness. Believe it,i kept planning when should i meet him,how can i try to meet him and when can i become something like him=a star,a phenomenon. I couldnt sleep.

I felt restless all night long so i decided to pay back my fasting deals. Out of the sudden i cant because of girls problems. I felt horrible. Once i did,i switched on the television from 5am mind you,and all the news say: he was sent to a hospital. I was in shock. Then i knew what all my gibberish was all about. I decided the news took so long to confirm when Michael Jackson is dead etc so i took a shower and the last song i heard was 'Dont stop till you get enough',i hurried and hoping the best of luck but i saw..

'Michael is dead'

One hour soon CNN confirmed he has died.

I cried.in.disbelief.

Yesterday i saw this phrase something like be with the person before its too late etc.
Oh i knew too well.

Its funny when all i heard before was things like

'he is a weirdo'
'he is a pedo'
'he is a white woman'
'he is this,he is a molester'

Deep inside you piece of crap,you never knew what happened, so many ignorant people out there,yea go ahead you just crush my dreams,hope someone's dead filled you with happiness. MORONS.

I dont know how to turn to,it seems just like few years back.

Thanks everyone for making my day miserable. This marks one of the saddest day of my life. I felt like ive lost a very good friend,the one who always fills me up with wonderful music,wonderful joy,wonderful dreams,believe that i can become something big,the one who stands right my side in all my life especially when everyone hates me.

Ive learnt a lesson. Eventhough everyone hates you,mostly or whatever,there's always someone else who loves you,I cant believe i cant meet him anymore in person. No one will ever compare to him. He is the greatest entertainer. I miss him and i love him. I know i seem stupid to type this out,he dont even know me but i JUST KNEW HE IS THE MOST HUMBLE ENTERTAINER EVER.

I.AM.DEVASTATED. YOU DONT KNOW WHAT IVE BEEN THROUGH AND LISTENING TO HIM JUST MAKE ME DAY BUT I DONT KNOW ANYMORE. IT FEELS LIKE I HAD LOST A FAMILY MEMBER. REST IN PEACE MJ.

YOU TELL ME WHO CAN HANDLE A WORLD FULL OF LIES AND DECEITS BY PEOPLE. THE STUPID RUMOURS,THE BUZZING MOUTH,WHY WONT PEOPLE LEAVE HIM ALONE,URGGGGG. He is a very strong man! VERY.

I cant type anymore,i cry too much and it seems no one cares.
Goodbye,i will be back after i shed enough tears.

P.S. I felt funny about Farrah Fawcett too and i dont know if im physic or something,
she died too today.

EDITED/.

PSS. When he was alive,everyone laugh about his nose falling off and all,now he is dead you all mourn for him and some of you suddenly feel a need to do so,i dont buy it. If you have been a real fan,you must behave like one or actually try to understand the issue instead of following the media. AND NOW HE IS GONE,WHO WILL YOU BLAME? THOSE IGNORANT PEOPLE WHO CONSTANTLY BLAME HIM FOR THINGS HE DIDNT DO! IM SO MAD but im really sad. My eyes are hurting from all the tears. Its worst than losing a friend,it wouldnt be the same anymore when i wake up.

HE IS A PEDO? I DOUBT SO!

THEY ALL SUE HIM FOR WHAT? FOR $$$$ ITS FUNNY YOU DIDNT SEE THAT COMING?
He gets sued alot because he is too innocent or in other words too kind! He is a loving man, perhaps low self-esteem and he always get picked on so he try to change his ways=face,he thought he would look good but YOU PEOPLE KEEP PICKING ON HIM SO HE KEEPS CHANGING. You all laugh but its really saddening. Its the same when someone gets bullied.

Dont you get it,he have a different childhood,of course he will think differently! Even if he's weird,what makes you any better than him?

PSSS.Some celebs mourning for him,i find it funny,maybe they do it for fame,
i will always know who really feel sad. Why when someone is gone then they wish they were there or wish they appreciate him,why not long time ago? Why now? Its a little too late!

IM SO MAD

AND IM SO SAD.

I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY ANYMORE.

R.I.P.
1958-2009.

Somehow it still hurts seeing him smiling,seeing his videos,i lost something virtually yet seems so real.

One thing for sure,i wont forget these pictures:

Raccoon eyes.

2009-06-23T21:36:00.025+08:00

22 June 2009 is a tiring but an exciting day! Adventure!
Raccoon eyes,haha! Oily hair, Heart loose shirt with nice metallic details behind,short frilly skirt,fishnet socks (fave) & b.u.m. shoes.
I splurge & shop for the first time.
I bought shoes and earrings for mum,good daughter?
I almost lost my handphone but its in my bag all day long. Panic haha!
Another wrong foundation haha, ssssss.
Afrah's SIM card cant work,its funny to find out the truth haha!

I ate 3 plain breads for breakfast and didn't eat until 9pm,hmmm.
We walked miles and miles to get to our destination. Excuse our tired-ness faces.
Ended up we found the shortest route by bus or even another trail.
Being stinky,conquered by tiredness and oily-ness reminds me of physical education,damn!
Better face condition now but still need to get it flawless.
My hair looks terrible if its oily,tskkk.
I almost type 'oily' as 'oliy'/'oyli'.
Went home alone,cheeky boys,ewew.

1st pic: Looks like a devil haha.
2nd pic: Checking you out.
I kept looking at that pervert guy whether he was still checking on us,eww.

Funny words we used:

1.1: Afrah: "You mean this is the second time in the holiday you're out?"

1.2: Afrah: "Why you closed down your blogshop?"

Me: "Because now i have money .. enough money .."

Afrah: "OHHH,SO YOURE SAYING YOU RICH ALREADY,NO NEED.."

1.3: Afrah:I wish ive your mum!'

After texting Aisyah for directions (too late though):

1.4: Aisyah: "I thought of becoming your tourist guide for awhile...

I think next time you guys need a map.."

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

More pictures:
Click here.
Take care,happy belated father's day DAD!
School is reopening soon,urg. Now im tired. Goodbye till soon,very soon.

Do you like a girl wearing all black?

2009-06-17T15:26:00.012+08:00

Transparent rare black top with swirl designs,high waist tight fitting skirt, fishnet stockings, narrow shiny shoes, what more can you ask for?
Initially plan to have an outing for a threesome but Afrah has some problems so Aisyah and i decided to head for other places. Afrah promised a date next week!
Bishan>Wisma Atria>Cineleisure>Heeren>Far East>YewTee>Carpark>Home.
Eyes are burning. Really burning.
Didnt have much water intake,feels weak.
Hate people staring but slowly learn to overcome it.
Halfway feels insecure as people stare alot.
I dont understand why girls stare at legs while man on everything(ok can understand)?
Need to use the right foundation,looks darker than my skin tone.
Loves red lipstick for now.

Bought a skirt,went back home and gotten a bag worth $129.90,big deal to me!
Suddenly love my hair haha.
I love wearing all black although its a hot country.
Long John Silver is expensive but its good,high quality fries and cheese!
Aisyah makes me laugh by saying:

1.2: 'You like shiny things'

1.3:'Papa poker face,papa poker face'

1.4:'Just danceeeeee'

1.5:'Of course you can see me,im wearing white!'

1.6:'You mean after all this holiday,this is the first time you went out?!'

1.7:'HAHA,pornstar pose!'

1.8:'Leg craammmmmmmp!'

TSKTSK.

All in all Aisyah is a nice classmate turn to a friend! (;

Feel so tired walking,maybe its just me.

Cant wait for the next outing!
I do look like a vampire,its cool.
Back home and felt sick.
Sleep allll day long.
Eyes burning,still! Haha.

You can find the rest of the pictures here:

Click here.

Till then,we will meet again.

9 days and counting at home!

2009-06-13T02:32:00.013+08:00

How many days did i neglect my bloggie? Haha.

Anywayyy,
despite staying at home not going to do anything either until next week,I think i have THE BEST WEEK=LAZY HIBERNATING WEEK EVER! I get to rest without any stress of the slightest thing! WEE. Every time i want to do something,i ended up sleeping,ahh the joy! HAHA ok seems bad but what can i say (:!.

I KNOW I KNOW. While others are getting a job,im at home sleeping. Doing the simplest chores,ok sounds like im really having a 'grand' life hahaa. HOLIDAYYYS !

While others complain of getting bored staying at home,i yelled 'happiness'. They must be really stupid,its one or even three days at home and they start whining. SHUT UP. When there's school,students whine and there's holiday when some of you really can enjoy,

again.. WHINE. EE PATHETIC. Go do something at home,find something!

I enjoy my days planning,renting dvds via my mum haha and spent the nights and days ok basically 24 hours watching the movies. I enjoy thriller genres,even though some curse a lot,feel awkward watching it with my mum :/. EEK.

Also reading books and comics. Hmm. Eating counts? '' Sleeping by day,Awake by night'' like an night owl 0_0. Sounds familiar right? Thats because thats my motto HAHA! I am a heavy sleepy since in my mum's y'know. The doctor told her. :/.

Chores,i dont really do them hahahahahaha. My dad allow me to work,my mum dont as its hard to find one during recession. When i said 'nah now isn't the time', he do support me by asking me to go esplanade and watch theater. HAHA. :D.

I have been earning money! I dont need a blogshop yet so i have decided not to do this holiday. Instead thinking of spending on some great deals this GREAT SINGAPORE SALE! YAY! So much for celebrating for a new blogshop haha,not! My brother advised me not now.. okayyy. Word of mouth is gooood,only if customers saying good things that is :X.

It helps with my work of art,remember the one i said ''wooden craft'',yup thats the one im selling. Im not stating it here,i have alot of designs and im afraid people will imitate what i do. Will be doing one for father's day and my mum upcoming birthday on July,wee! Will try to improve more on art skills eventhough im not an art student.

Who needs art lessons when you have creativity? (;

Michael/Mikaeel,you will still be my number one.

Ok bye,have a great weekend!

Holiday holiday lets celebrate! Obama rules! (:

2009-06-05T15:43:00.018+08:00

I have been waiting to blog,just been tired,ok kidding,LAZY HAHA.

Holidays make me lazy and i like it uh-huh uh-huh (:!.

I love having nothing to do hahaha.

You know recently, i have stepped out of my comfort zone

and explore a lot of things!

Like making new friends like JANELLE

Funny and fun and she's one year younger than me!

Mad about Zac Efron.

Since holidays are in. I have TONS OF THINGS I WANT TO DO.

Just two more days of procrastinating and no more.

I want to go out like every week,

betray all the betrayers,sing a song and post it up on youtube.

I need inspiration and stop wanking hahahahaa. So it may take awhile. Also i love

surprising WANKERS with new looks haha!

___

ABOUT OBAMA.

Not forgetting about Obama speech in Cairo.
I love his idea about wanting new start with the U.S and all muslims
around the world (includes me,include MJ? haha). I dont care if people are against it.

Ok back to the point,its the time!

The time Palestinian,every Middle East Countries
that had been affected, sufferings should put to a stop!

They dont deserve what have been going through in their life,being killed, oh the innocent young children,the innocent people,they dont deserve that treatment!
They have seen enough and even i do.
If only i had a lot of $,i will donate and make a better world for them.
Obama is a very brave man i must say.

I believe we live in a world full of ignorance,must stop that!

'You must respect minorities' Obama.
Yup. (:

He really meant it when he says
'its time for a change'

Also i dont think Osama Bin Laden really said what he did,
i think its a fake story just like the 9/11.
Who really knows if he really did 9/11? I dont think so. There's dirty politics here and there.

Thanks Obama. There are times when im in my secondary school days,
i have been through a lot you and Michael J always been on my side.
Ok now i sound like a crazy deluded victim
who fantasize on a daily basis. NO I DONT.

Its just that ive been through alone
and i hope i can help others. You know what happen?
Nahh i see what i can say in the near future.

RE-EDITED/.

"I know there are many -- Muslim and non-Muslim -- who question whether we can forge this new beginning. There is so much fear, so much mistrust. But if we choose to be bound by the past, we will never move forward."
President Obama.

Very touching but too good to be true,can i really trust Obama?
Hm or is there really 'hope'? We will see?

TILL THEN,BLOG SOON.
________

Ok i will be back like Michael/Mikaeel does haha. OW!

Meanpheyaszmyn: SaberMidnight.

hey

GC

HAHAHAH.

''I'm not about to take no for an answer noIf you tell me I can't, I'm still gonna goI did it all by myself and I found..I found my way around it''

Who's Laughing Now

Score.

Happy Birthday MJ!

Gone Wrong.

What's your freaking age again?

Happy Death Anniversary Mr BADASS.

Watch me.

Fickle minded.

May Days.

USS

Where are you?

My friend told me

I

:3

Where were you?

Wish.

Whats up?

5 in 1

Happy Birthday Michael Jackson.

Hyper Hibernate.

Make me want some more,baby.

25 June 2009.

One Month Disappearing Anniversary

Runawayyyy.

Whats up with music now?

- Meanpheyaszmyn.

I am kind of beeezaaay.

Crazy & Krazy

You have departed alive.

Go to the park,man.

Back.

Green day = Awesome concert!

Walking on sunshine.

2010.

Its fair and square.

So?

Hopefully.

HOLIDAYYY.

Meaningful,i promise.

Different and i dont care.

Runaway,can i?

Kitty Kat.

Listen to me, man.

Back to back.

What do you think people?

Are you bored?

Sometimes i dont get human and their existance.

Nowhere fast.

MJ is worth more dead than alive.

MJ is not gay. I hate Media!

I think Mj Memorial is rude.

Girl with hairflicks.

I dont like pretentious people who love Michael Jackson.

Somehow i knew Michael Jackson died.

Raccoon eyes.

Do you like a girl wearing all black?

9 days and counting at home!

Holiday holiday lets celebrate! Obama rules! (:

''I'm not about to take no for an answer no
If you tell me I can't, I'm still gonna go
I did it all by myself and I found..
I found my way around it''