HOLIDAYYY.

I know somehow im late to say this but holiday is hereeeeeee.
Haha for some schools, there's still exams etc.

After 1 december (after MY exams), ive been sleeping like a log.

In short,past few days ive DONE NOTHING.

NOTHING! NOT A SINGLE THING except those daily chores!

WAKE UP WAKE UP.

All these pictures were taken on Hari Raya Haji. Fun day!

I cant believe i wore my mum's piece.
&& its shockingly few hundreds for a piece.

I was left dumbfounded after knowing that because,y'know last minute pick of clothes.

I need ALOT OF plans to go out but im as usual love staying and hibernate at home.

I think ima bear,sleep when its cold esp. in the morning

but today is different just because half of the day im verryyy careful.

Careful of what? INSECTS >:(!

Theres this small bug (i think) with weird legs and shell and its black.

Its size is like an ant and if you put it under a microscope, it looks DISGUSTING.

WHY DO THEY EXIST !??

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. CANT SLEEP.

I imagine things that it came to eat me etc.

Cant sleep so woke up super early and guess what i saw?

Another insect on the floor and ive no idea what it is into my brother's room.

Dont worry this time its bigger. OK WHAT,NO ITS NOT OKAY!

DAMNIT. DAMNIT. HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO BE SAFE !?

Gotten alot of stuff and no i didnt go shopping. My mum did without my concern.
But she bought alot of things plus unnecessary ones,i dont know why
but im bless with such a thoughtful mother.
Ive gotten a very expensive jacket (floral,asking me to be a lady SARCASTIC UH) ,pink bear (my mum being sarcastic i think because she knows i dont like pink!) ,cushion,vest,dress,dress,shoes,another pair of shoes,jacket,hoodie and its NEVER ENDING. I know >> 0_0?



Looking back at all the old pictures make me laugh. Im such a ___.
Speaking of different,im revamping my blog (yay?) so unactive links will be deleted,
dont call me a snoopy just because i know new links etc. When i mean by revamp means
all the new data must be NEW too. Thank you but somehow if you dont bother,im not going to bother uh,because sometimes people tend to look at you as someone whose busybody so whatever then from now.

Faree and I are planning to go to 'this' concert. SO EXCITED! Wont reveal to which one though lalalalalala. Hope it will STILL be available next week,woo. AND SEZAIRI IN YAYNESS. EVERYBODY DONT LOSE HOPE,VOTE VOTE FOR HIM. Im not a hardcore fan uh but i just want him to win,pft. I have my reasons,pft.

I dont want just some Adam Lambert turn out. I know everyone is 'so shock' he kissed a boy, i dont. Im just disgusted the move to his crouch thing. TURN OFF. But i like his guts. Britney and Madonna are disgusting whores why no 'BIG FUSS' over that?

Why 'A BIG FUSS' over Janet J's ACCIDENTAL y'know stuff. Why her? Why not Justin Timberlake who actually caused the commotion?

So what about Katy Perry that whore,ok slut,sounds better? and her 'try-to-act-weird songs 'I kissed a girl and i like it?'

Or Lady Gaga and her nauseous whatever 'try to hard skank fully loaded' ;D.

THESE people,still all these people need to die. Waste of space.

Maybe just maybe girls are stupid,the reasons why they have body image is because of them letting everybody see and of course people will criticise you and guys are evil devils. Im not siding Adam Lambert though but everyone is being an asshole, thank you.

Not MJ,he dont deserve but i dont get it. He has been nominated and Taylor Swift (the plain boring SUPER BORING thing, ok sorry girl, which have alot of ratings after Kanye made her super famous?).

All too sudden and no Michael is dead,no nomination of DEAD PEOPLE PLEASE. WHAT IS THIS!? Originals and true music(s) are dead. DEAD. Sigh. Sorry to offend anyone.

Ok enough.

K bye. Cant wait for next week?

(:

Meaningful,i promise.

Heard of more deaths in this world?

Dont lie,its rising. Recently more cases of committing suicide.

Am i right?

The recent one is about the Korean supermodel.

Sureeee some people might say

"oh shes so stupid,a rising supermodel but ... etc"

I know how she feels though.

When youre alone and famous,

do you know how that is?

When youre in school and youre odd,

you should know how that is.

When youre in school and everyone let you down,

you dont know how it feels.

When youre alone and lonely and everyone is picking on you,

you dont know how that is.

Unfortunately,i know how it feels.

Only thing is that ive a strong courage,

the main thing: i dont commit suicide

but ive the urge few months especially years ago.

Its hard,very hard.

You expect people to forget what those creatures did to you,

regardless of how big or small the matter is.

NOONE can forget. Its not easy to forgive,forget and move on.

Its not.

I just wish people are more understanding of the surroundings

and the pressure they put people in.

It tortures me when people kill themselves.

Is is very sad.

I feel like i want to help them.

The funny thing is sometimes i dont know how i can help myself

means ive days ive thought of committing suicide myself.

Oh well. Life is fair,people always made it unfair.

Their jealousy.greed.lust.pride.money etc.

Damn it. STOP IT PEOPLE.

This reminds me of Michael Jackson all over.

I still hate the new fans though.

I hate when they say 'oh how i wish i love him when hes alive'

Feels like giving you my, you know.

I know i know,everytime you read,its about MJ.

"Everytime i read her blog,its about MJ"

Hahahah. Sorry.

If you love someone SO MUCH,you know what i mean.

____

SINGAPOREANS LISTEN UP:

VOTE FOR SEZAIRI.

MAKE HIM SINGAPORE IDOL.

THANK YOU. MAKE HIM THE 3RD SINGAPORE IDOL.

REMEMBER,DONT FORGET HAHAHA.

Omg,first time ever that i truly want someone to win.

Errk. The reason is because hes unique,talented and humble.

Faizal shouldnt be out uh,i really think Sezairi and Fai should be in the top 2.

See the rest of the finalists,pleaseeeeeeeeeeee oh my god,not worth it.

I REPEAT NOT WORTH YOUR VOTE so vote for sezairi thank you.

Vote Sezairi for me too.

I mean remember after that someone be an idol,will he/she remember the fans?

He wont let you down,never let you down,always remember fans.

The others just want fame,HONEST.

PROMISE.

I like when he do that smile,cheeky eh haha.

Ok stop.

____

One more week and two last days with exams

AND IM FREEEEEEEE.

CANT WAIT.

I cant wait for this sickness to fully recover though.

I miss my teacher! 2009 teachers are so NICE.

All have their ways of 'nice'.

Ms W left this message:

"Hi, you are the best student of ____.

So glad to have you in my class. You will definitely do well in life with your positive attitude.

All the best for your exams too. Keep in touch."

Im so. touched?

:(

Alot said the good things though. Sigh.

:(

I still dont really like the studies though haha!

I want to quit school :

I know "so stupid."

Heh. I love 09' classmates! (:

___

HONESTLY.

I dont like when people uses a victim etc to get to the top.

You get what i mean? Yes i know this is life etc.

You can obviously do well even if youre nice and give credits accordingly.

I hate when people use "black magic,spells" too.

I mean how long can it lasts?

I KNOW WHAT YOU THINK!

"Omg are you serious,people still use that?"

Yes im serious,i can know,YOU KNOW?!

Somehow i wont be drawn to that "someone" if that someone use "magic".

Its so fake? Its worst than plastic surgery.

You want someone to love you but you yourself know that youre a fake,

you dont love yourself,how can someone love you?

Even if you use "magic",tell me how long can that last

and how can you be happy for the rest of your life knowing that

they dont like you for you for the rest of your life?

Put it this way,you FORCE people to like you by using "spells".

Shhhesssh some people.
I want get away from here,i see people still practice this stuff.

I dont like it,neither do GOD.

Please dont lie to yourself,PEOPLE.

____

Another thing i find it funny is that this "girl" copies me.

Sure not a big deal right?

BUT

she is truly mad if someone else be a carbon copy of hers.

Not to mention,ew? From few years back til now.

Same hair colour,almost same hair,

same pose,same this,same that,almost follow what i study too!

Now shes following what my principles etc are and

go around telling people its not her,its me who "loves" her.

i know,i show her this face -_-''.

Damn "YOU". Its so freaking irritating uh.

I wonder if she will follow what i do for the 'new' me?

Again see who will think that "girl" is HER. Hm.

Peanut. Haha okay move that aside.

___

Damn irritated with "2012"

Noone is God,so noone knows when the world will end,so shut up.

Oh i heard the ship is saved,people are alive etc.

WHAT THE.

PEOPLE ALIVE?!

ARE YOU SERIOUS,THE END OF THE WORLD,PEOPLE ALIVE?!?

WHAT THE. Okay whatever,im not interested to know.

"Jennifer's Body"? Oh please dont bother watching unless youre

some type of fangirls,perverts or morons.

Megan Fox looks like a devil,i dont know whats so hot about prostitute?

Oopps.

Hmmm "Victoria Secret"? You mean high class protitutes?

Oooops sorrrrrrrry, not interested in seeing maybe 'articial bodies'

and walking around with expensive lingeries

where kids in war needs those money to eat.

They get all the money,not caring about whose their fans worst still?

Better be a rockstar,a singer,even a dancer than this model crap.

Even Michael J. cares about his fans seriously.

If thats your favourites,go watch,pffft.

If youre VERY smart,you know who those eyes belong to?

I dont like the guy but he is awfully cute.

(:.

Ok enough of complains. I complain again next post ahhaaaaa.

CANT WAIT FOR EXAMS TO END :D.

Enjoy your days,dont be bothered by "perfect" robots.

EAT WHAT YOU LIKE GIRLS. EATTT CHOCOLATES.

EAT HAHAHA ;D.

Different and i dont care.

Its been long right? Haha.

Ive been observing and learning peoples' true colours.

Not to mention what makes this world a WORLD.

so excuse me from the long break.

The main thing you should know is that i cant wait for December to arrive.

It will come if you know what i mean.

This time when i say everything new,expect EVERYTHING new.

You know firstly nothing gets funnier than people judging you

by your poses or pictures,funniest joke ever

and threatening you by wanting to post it in public hahahahahahhaa.

What the hell is that,please? AHAHAA.

_________

To continue my life always had its ups and down.

Nothing much but recently this year filled with more caring humans

eventhough they arent honestly caring but they are more sympathetic.

Theres these few days i wanted to do things all alone,everything A-Z alone

but sometimes people dont let me,

im not sure why but one of these days

im going to break hours alone.

God knows where i will go.

Somewhere you can scream in silence.

November here now,how fast and i love it ahaha.

So safely i can say that last month i had the real laughters.

All thanks to all classmates 09.

No matter what happens, i still think mates 09 is the best so far.

Recently,i think i look ugly hahahaa.

The reason why i put my title as 'Different and i dont care' means

theres time when i grow up

and the same repeating words that people keep

saying be it nice things or bad things always has been

because shes 'different'

Now where i reach my point where i dont care anymore what anyone have to say

especially 'different',i dont live to please anyone.

Thank you.

Ive been through alot so dont blame me for

not being 'emotional' towards everyone's needs.

Everyone is too caught up with the stupidest whiny problems

but not the all-round bigger problems.

Who actually stops by and think

'hey why do i actually believe this and that?'

'Why dont i take an initiative to talk to someone before i sum everything up?'

or who in a thousands actually thinks

'hey that person do really has nice hair etc etc'

instead of just judging someone sometimes that you dont even know?

I wonder but the answer is sometimes humans are disgusting.

Not to mention,theres this Michael Jackson premiere for 'THIS IS IT'

Whatever crap,who actually cares for him when hes alive?

People who I DONT EVEN KNOW who cares for his legacy are at his premiere.

These celebrities wants fame,you get the picture,not all but think about it.

Michael Jackson has not even see this crap or approve to be seen by many.

He is a perfectionist,he isnt ready for the concert yet

and out of the sudden,'bam!'

Saying its for his legacy,bullshit. Im not watching,waste my money.

Even when this movie or crap is rolling,mouth will still be commenting.

Stupid.

I know i shouldnt bring this up but this is a perfect example.

I try every way to forget him for a long time and listening to other bands.

In other way,i will achieve to forget everything about him.

Other thing is,i hate boys. Girls too ok humans haha.

Whenever girls cry over a boy,i will laugh not comfort her though,sorry

especially those not even 18.

I dont know,i find these species weak.

Boys do it because theyre "curious"

and girls did it because theyre "in love"

In short,both are freaks. End.

For me i dont need a man,i be my own man and woman,

Ok simple. I know theres some boy who is cute blablabla.

Living alone,more time,more everything.

I always been very mean with boys especially those not in school.

I never let ANYONE close to me AT ALL.

You dont have to agree with me,

whatever goes.

Also,i think every kid shouldnt study so hard.

Eat whatever you want,

Do whatever you want,

Say whatever you want.

I want to do what i want!

If youre a genius,you know whose this hahahaha.

&

Who the hell is that?

Update soon.