Different and i dont care.

Its been long right? Haha.

Ive been observing and learning peoples' true colours.

Not to mention what makes this world a WORLD.

so excuse me from the long break.

The main thing you should know is that i cant wait for December to arrive.

It will come if you know what i mean.

This time when i say everything new,expect EVERYTHING new.

You know firstly nothing gets funnier than people judging you

by your poses or pictures,funniest joke ever

and threatening you by wanting to post it in public hahahahahahhaa.

What the hell is that,please? AHAHAA.

_________

To continue my life always had its ups and down.

Nothing much but recently this year filled with more caring humans

eventhough they arent honestly caring but they are more sympathetic.

Theres these few days i wanted to do things all alone,everything A-Z alone

but sometimes people dont let me,

im not sure why but one of these days

im going to break hours alone.

God knows where i will go.

Somewhere you can scream in silence.

November here now,how fast and i love it ahaha.

So safely i can say that last month i had the real laughters.

All thanks to all classmates 09.

No matter what happens, i still think mates 09 is the best so far.

Recently,i think i look ugly hahahaa.

The reason why i put my title as 'Different and i dont care' means

theres time when i grow up

and the same repeating words that people keep

saying be it nice things or bad things always has been

because shes 'different'

Now where i reach my point where i dont care anymore what anyone have to say

especially 'different',i dont live to please anyone.

Thank you.

Ive been through alot so dont blame me for

not being 'emotional' towards everyone's needs.

Everyone is too caught up with the stupidest whiny problems

but not the all-round bigger problems.

Who actually stops by and think

'hey why do i actually believe this and that?'

'Why dont i take an initiative to talk to someone before i sum everything up?'

or who in a thousands actually thinks

'hey that person do really has nice hair etc etc'

instead of just judging someone sometimes that you dont even know?

I wonder but the answer is sometimes humans are disgusting.

Not to mention,theres this Michael Jackson premiere for 'THIS IS IT'

Whatever crap,who actually cares for him when hes alive?

People who I DONT EVEN KNOW who cares for his legacy are at his premiere.

These celebrities wants fame,you get the picture,not all but think about it.

Michael Jackson has not even see this crap or approve to be seen by many.

He is a perfectionist,he isnt ready for the concert yet

and out of the sudden,'bam!'

Saying its for his legacy,bullshit. Im not watching,waste my money.

Even when this movie or crap is rolling,mouth will still be commenting.

Stupid.

I know i shouldnt bring this up but this is a perfect example.

I try every way to forget him for a long time and listening to other bands.

In other way,i will achieve to forget everything about him.

Other thing is,i hate boys. Girls too ok humans haha.

Whenever girls cry over a boy,i will laugh not comfort her though,sorry

especially those not even 18.

I dont know,i find these species weak.

Boys do it because theyre "curious"

and girls did it because theyre "in love"

In short,both are freaks. End.

For me i dont need a man,i be my own man and woman,

Ok simple. I know theres some boy who is cute blablabla.

Living alone,more time,more everything.

I always been very mean with boys especially those not in school.

I never let ANYONE close to me AT ALL.

You dont have to agree with me,

whatever goes.

Also,i think every kid shouldnt study so hard.

Eat whatever you want,

Do whatever you want,

Say whatever you want.

I want to do what i want!

If youre a genius,you know whose this hahahaha.

&

Who the hell is that?

Update soon.

Runaway,can i?

The overloaded blog post "boomsxxs'' with pictures.

One open house, the other just random pictures with animal instinct?

Have you ever thought of running away from social life?

Ive been thinking about this eversince i almost died (well feels like it) few days ago.

I accidentally cut my ______

and once i felt so happy,thinking all my sorrows are going to end.

The world went blank and black,

my head was spinning and i couldnt breath but i dont

know what happen that it was so painful,i prayed and im back down here.

Maybe i shouldnt have prayed so i will be dead by now.

Whenever you want to put your message through,you cant just like Michael J.

Been so many disruption from irresponsible people.

My mini open house was great but after all those smiles were just another act.

The reason ive been staying in the house is simple - im sick of the world.

I can do whatever i want without any interaction and do nothing.

There have been a point when i went out recently and suddenly are so afraid

of humans and any connections between them. I felt like not talking.

I see there's no point of living now.

If there's one job i want is to be is to be a rockstar but not another rockstar.

What i meant was a rockstar.

One thing for sure i like to surprise everyone.

Then i can do my job not only from the mind but from my heart.

I can scream however i want to just to fill the anger thats been burning in for so long.

I could write songs that people can relate to.

Ive been keeping my feelings so tight,noone even knows what is running through my mind.

While other girls are so busy searching for relationships,i love being alone.

God knows for how long and how capable i am to handle all by myself.

Noone can make me happy,not even a single guy.

I love girls with reputation and pride.

Not to mention im not just any other girl walking pass you.

It has been ages since ive met this girl.

Just want to say do take care of yourself and good luck in whatever you do.

We will meet again one day!

(:

Nothing much i could write. Others are personal.

There were once my day was so empty,i just felt like packing up my bag and runaway

as far as i could go,jump down so deep in the ocean so noone could find me.

This isnt some piece of crap written by some artist,this is how i felt.

There are so many things i want to say but i cant.

I felt my life is so empty i dont find anything interesting anymore.

Kids nowadays are getting from bad to worse to worst.

Everything they felt are ''normal'',well honeyboos,it isnt.

Some kids study so hard but couldnt get what they want like me.

Im thinking of nothing but killing myself.

Some people do deserve a hell load of recognition

but they dont,i know how they felt.

Right now my left eye= swollen. Wonder how im going to go to school.

Stupid school?

Im not going to switch on my computer if i could,

no tuning to radio in ages now,sick of hearing hypocrites' voices,one time laughing about MJ,out of the sudden saying they miss them.

No walking to cinemas right now been almost one year since i watch any movie.

Not watching MJ TRIBUTE or whatever crap.

No tv this is a promise until all MJ Tributes are gone.

I cant bear to watch especially when the ones who deliver the performance are by

weaklings and dumplings.

I cant stand it.

If you want a tribute please invite a powerful singers with passion and the ones

who really remembers MJ for MJ.

I rather watch all MJ impersonators,at least they have passion about MJ

and not just about performing and getting salary.

Now back to putting an act.

Got to pretend to smile

and pretend im happy.

But in the end,still the same desire to run away.

Since noone has the heart.

Ive been so cold eversince,dont blame me.

Goodbye.

Kitty Kat.

Boomz. (Singaporeans inside joke)

(Sorry for the picture,was tired and sweaty haha. My mum hates that picture haha!)

The fact why i love holidays?

Simply because i have nothing better to do.

I laze around and i dont care if i will never step out of the house for one whole year.

I really dont. I dont know if there's anyone like me?

I dont even need to rely on computers,i can watch MJ movies over and over.

Just laze around,you know?

But decorating,reading,tv,helping parents,eat,movie marathons etc. and the next day,the same routine,I LOVE IT. I know im weird but i seriously do love this lifestyle.

Just that if i want this then whats my job? Ug hate it.

I want to do something so different but earning lots of money.

Just how? Will see.

Done with my latest project given by Ms Liow.

As fast as three days and completed. Thats why i love doing things alone. Now the thing is whether my team are as fast as me? I hope they are AT LEAST responsible.

Oh well remember,not doing work= MEAN LEADER. Thank you.

& i mean it this time.

This special month is interesting and while most kids out there are out for money,

i spend the time just to visit my loved ones,i love my maternal side,theyre funny!

I really dont care about the money,

i really cant understand why people are so engross with money?

Is that why some of you are happy about?

If that is the reason then its disgusting.

I know its important and powerful but in the end its not everything.

(Kitty kitty meow meow!)

Since i love cats,this is what i came up with.

(My mum likes this haha!)

I kept on reading about MJ and i cant stop. Im going to buy another book pronto!

I was observing and then i came up with 'whatsup with madonna all nice?'

I always thought of her nothing than an easy woman,sorry to the fans.

Seriously shes disgusting,two face and bitchy,trying too hard altogether.

Ewwwww.

I was ''paralysed'' when she said she has always admired MJ.

(after his death that is,usually she said he's a creep blabla)

I just wanted to say that this is the kind of 'out-of-the-sudden-MJ-fan'

or maybe the ones who secretly been jealous of him.

Its obvious to me.

Just when i thought im the only one who agree.

I read.

on.

"Michael Jackson thought Madonna was 'sincerely in love' with him.
The late pop star - who died in June from acute Propofol intoxication - claimed he turned down the singer's advances because he didn't find her 'sexy'."

HAHAHAHAHAHAH!

In a 2001 interview with his friend Rabbi Shmuley Boteach,

Michael said: 'I think she was sincerely in love with me and I was not in love with her.

I think she likes shock value and she knows how to push buttons on people.
'She did a lot of crazy things.

knew we had nothing in common.

She is not sexy at all.

I think being sexy comes from the heart in the way you present yourself.'

STRIKE ONE!

As well as being convinced Madonna was attracted to him, Michael also thought the 'Vogue' star was jealous of his career.
He explained: 'They admire you and know you are wonderful and great because they are jealous, because they wish they were in your shoes. Madonna is one of them. She is jealous. She is a girl, a woman and I think that's what bothers her. I think women don't scream for other women. Men are too cool to scream for women.

I get the fainting and adulation and she doesn't.'

MJ SOUNDS EGOISTIC BUT ITS WORTHWHILE HAHAHA!
Im so going to buy this new book,cant wait! Not sure if i can trust the author?
Why out of the sudden right? Its suppose to be private,hmm.

(Not sure if im going to have sweet dreams or a nightmare after seeing this picture?)

HAHA!

Anyways im not sure if Mj is a muslim? Or if he is dead? Ugggggggg.

If im famous,i would love to play dead hahahaa.

Another thing that make me happy is talking to Bee.

I mean Feat. We talked about morons (inside joke)

Heh. Cant wait to meet you in Dec.

Another thing is how stupid ok wait how idiotic haha

most people can spend their money on F1 stupid race.

Sorry fans.

The singers werent even interesting.

How sad,they are enjoying

while most arent helping the unfortunates,

not even a $2 donation

but can spend $100/- and over for such an event.

Humanssss.

Dont worry ive alot of tickets and pass for F1,got it for free.

I threw all of it away because i was angry

and dont regret one bit (;

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And another man that makes me happy.

This guy.

Reason?

Funny.

Hot.

Fierce.

Tall.

The way he smiles.

and he looks and reminds me of my..

dad.

Thats why haha.

Although he supports for John Mccain (that (!^#@&),

i like his personality in the series.

Gentleman but crazy haha.

This is my movie/series marathon for this week.

Next week another man HAHAHAHA!

But the story abit laggy *yawn*

Update soon.

My open house = coming.

Clean my room : partly done.

I know how slow of me hahaaa!

Those that ive invited do tell me if you can by tomorrow latest

if not,

well im sorry but i wouldnt be too happy about it.

Those who wants to come,do message me.

Bye!

"HIGGGGGINSSSS"

BAHAHAH!

If you know what i mean.